Lost identity

2009-08-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

after the gastric flu ordeal during the 1st wk of Aug, was down with chicken pox after only 2 wks. no idea y i keep falling sick recently. last yr i rem during july/aug i went to see doc for abt 3 times too, for cough and sore throat. Maybe its the "peak period", haa.

the few days of gastric flu was quite cmi, no appetite to eat and have to eat v plain n light. and was uncomfy until i couldnt stand straight on a morn.

chicken pox is worse. initially had fever on sun and went to see doc. doc said lymph node was infected which caused the fever. ate med and rested and was quite ok le and wanted to go back to work on mon. but on sun nite when i bathed, i saw a few red red dots on my body and arms and legs, with abit of water, like blisters. den panic abit n thought i cant be so suay ba?! asked mum to see and she also say seems like chicken pox n said mon see doc again. fever came back in the middle of the nite n took paracetamol again. see doc on mon aftnn n cfm its chicken pox. tue was really terrible. whole body ache esp my lower back and had no strength the whole day. fever also kept coming back n throat was damn pain, duno is it pox or sore throat. i tink the paracetamol i ate for tt few days is almost the same as wad i usually eat for a yr. very hard to bathe too cos have to be very careful and can only dab dry lightly.

now the blisters are starting to dry up le, n its itchyyyyyyy. soon will have many black marks and scars =(. worse thing now is many things cannot eat!

shall cherish the slacking at home before i go back to work soon =D

2009-07-26T23:04:00.007+08:00

been staying at my ah ma hse for the past 2 wks, while hse is undergoing some quite major renovations, making it impossible for any human being to survive there overnite. prob gg to take 1 or 2 more wks before it can be completed, and den its time to move back. the thot of moving back scares me. not tt i m not excited or happy to have a "new" hse and room, but the thot of shifting and unpacking juz makes me wan to faint. let me stay in ah ma hse forever.

the wk before we moved out from our hse was terrible. spent wkends and wkday nites after work to pack the whole room. imagine packing 18 yrs of stuff into juz boxes. mission almost possible. had to be hard hearted n threw away alot of stuffs. was so energy draining.

so cant imagine how to unpack everything and shift back all the furnitures and things. i tink it will be a terrible month.

staying at ah ma hse is good, get to eat home cooked food every nite, no need to do much hse work, except to wash own clothes and plates. no parents to keep nagging at me (parents stay at another aunt's hse). i m so gonna be fatter after this short stay.

2009-07-15T22:39:00.005+08:00

went yz concert on 11/7!! =D. missed her singing man. Concert was great, her voice still v power. got my all time fav songs like 同类，我不难过，我怀念的，天黑黑，眼神. n those fast songs like 奔，梦不落，绿光，第一天. but this time she sang more of those songs which are not so zhu da like 累赘 n i cant rem wad else. oh got 懒得去管 too! we sat quite front but it was at the side, so cant really see the dances well. she sang "cham cham bo" with a table dance. wanted to record video, but somehow the goonz side of me has to take effect at this time. i switch my phone camera to video, n held the phone up to record. arms aching alr after holding the same position for quite awhile. n towards the last 20s or so, realised that i did not press start to start recording. FAINTS!! wanted to bang wall! only managed to record last 11s of the finishing. n this was not the 1st time. prev wanted to take video of another song also 4gt to press start. i've got nth to say or defend myself. guilty as charged. hahaha.

n yz waved at us!! =DD n there were 2 encore! whole concert last for abt 3 hrs. the prev time i tink was only 2.5hrs. somehow there seems to be more interaction during the prev concert, or m i imagining things? aahah. nevertheless, i enjoyed the concert =D

too tired to blog now, more updates later.

-最想环游的世界就是你最内心的世界-

2009-06-30T22:05:00.002+08:00

time for some updates!

had a first try at golf a few wks ago at CDANS with Tam, Mag and Byran. was at the 3rd level and the furthest i hit was only 50+m, hahah. golf is quite ok, dun really dislike or like it. still prefer killing ppl on the court =D. after golf, me and tam went to Holland V roof top terrace cafe 211 to meet winnie, nana and ying for dinner. Food was not bad, n the outdoor ambience is quite good too =)

met up with kx and kw recently at JP too. Long time since i last met them, was great catching up with them. had high tea at new town coffee, followed by some shopping. they managed to get their shoes, but i din get anything except food, HA. i welcome junk food anytime in the office =D. After tt, had korean cuisine for dinner. had seafood pancake, steamboat and ginseng chicken. din really like the seafood pancake, but both the steamboat and ginseng chicken were good! reminds me of the time when i went Korea. the ginseng chicken was really damn good. we even had noodles to go with it, n the noodles were really smooth and silky, like mee sua. rem we had lots and lots of steamboat at korea too, ha. n the stone pot rice was nice too. *pulls myself back from korea* after dinner, tg joined us and we went to bakerinz for dessert and more chat. well, 3 women = 1 mkt. the new york cheesecake was good!! usually will have some reservations towards ordering cheesecake cos i m worried that the cheese will be too over, and i will feel sick of it after a few mouthfuls. but this strawberry cheesecake wun make me feel sick at all =D. their cakes taste alot better den the main course. oh, the cheesecake reminds me of last time when mei make cheesecake for us. i rem she/we (i rem i went to her hse b4 to make cheesecake) made a cheesecake for someone's bdae, haha. n was it at sakae sushi? my memory is gd! hahahah.

met up with the JC gals last sat too. quite surprised that all, except KOK, can make it despite such a last min arrangement. shopped with winnie and ying in the aftnn b4 the rest joined us. winnie drove me from redhill to vivo (though its only a few mrt stops away), and i have to say this - she was driving up the multistorey carpark and there was a car in front of her which was quite slow. so i asked her to drive abit slower if not when she catch up with the car in front, she have to brake alot and engine may die. so she slowed down abit, and after reaching the top, the car somehow was v slow, and she had to slow down quite alot. heard a noise after she slowed down, but thot it was nth cos she was still driving like normal. 2 sec later we ended up on the kerb, facing a wall in front. the engine had stalled and the car was able to move cos it was downslope. luckily the slope wasnt steep if not i tink we could have hit the wall? conclusion: dun take car when its only a few mrt stops. or rather, best to avoid taking winnie ong's car. HA. dun tink she will see this. *cross fingers*

2009-06-06T12:28:00.004+08:00

had big family dinner ytd to celebrate ah ma's bdae. went back to the hilltop garden restaurant at bukit batok CSC which we went last yr. But this time they booked sort of like a pte room with ktv. food was served at about 8+ and i was alr famished. and the thing abt skipping shark's fin, (which usually came as 2nd dish) - is that after the cold plate and feeding my empty stomach with some food, i have to wait until shark's fin is served and finished b4 the 3rd dish is served. when u r vv hungry, ur patience juz wears thin. maybe next time i can suggest to my ah ma, dun order shark's fin. order sth else like scallops or abalone instead =D. oh, and Jomond can walk alr! haha.

smsed the 2 butas ytd morn to say i wan sing k. 1 scolded me nonsense initially though i duno y she did tt. quite impossible tt she dun wan sing. hahaha. anyw, managed to fix a day for ktv. and juz duno y at times when u wan sth, no matter how hard u try u wun be able to get it, while at times u juz have it repeatedly. so, juz b4 i left office ytd, a col asked if i was free on 12th. say i alr put them aeroplane twice (defend myself: 1st time i alr told them i cant make it. 2nd time was i really only got to noe on wed that ah ma bdae dinner was on fri). and say they gg for dinner and ktv from 10pm-1am. ha ha. andddd, ytd after dinner my aunt asked if wan go ktv tml! Jackpot. HA HA.

well, most prob wun be joining col for k session though, hope i dun get scolded too badly, hah. and tml is not cfm too. shall see how, haha.

slpt at 2+/3 last nite, woke up at 8+ this morn and somehow cant fall aslp alr. but still rested my eyes until 10+ after feeling not so slpy.

gonna be Aminah for today. super hot and humid, zzz.

2009-05-06T22:58:00.012+08:00

went Batam over the long wkend! spent 3D2N at Harris. very slack and spent most of the time in the resort. Almost the whole resort is occupied by singaporeans. cant find any place which sells food nearby and so had the 1st nite dinner and next day breakfast at the resort.

1st day went exploring ard the resort, den went back to swim awhile b4 heading to the cable ski park. First time trying it and it wasnt as easy as it seems, haha. Tried the kneeling down one, and i tink it was a wise choice. Cos its was already exciting enough and not easy alr. The pulling force was very great and have to grab the rope very tightly, keeping arms straight while being dragged around the water. Din get past the 1st turn the 1st time and landed in the water at almost the other side of the water park =(. Very tiring to swim from where u drop to the bank and have to push the board while swimming. keep kicking and dun seems to be moving and so used freestyle to swim. got quite breathless and had to rest a few times. no stamina, hahah. And the most gross part was the green and muddy water. and when i walked on the bank of the water park, it feels like stepping on shit (not stepping on myself). Initially thought i had to walk all the way back and told myself i dun wan to play anymore, haha. But after a LONG LONG while, a motorbike finally came and rescue me back, hahaa. 2nd time got past the 1st turn but couldnt get past the 2nd turn. Irritated, haaa. SO after swimming in the gross water for the 2ND time, decided i had enough. $20 for 2 tries. At least it was an experience cheaper than that in SG.

Dinner was buffet, including some bbq food, at the resort, with live music entertainment by the hotel staff. they even go from table to table to ask ppl to sing or dedicate song. and they noe all kinds of songs, ranging from Jason Mraz to Beatles, from Eng to Chi, cantonese, hokkien songs, though i cant really understand wad they were singing at times, haha. but generally the buffet was overpriced la, for the quality and taste wise. though the staff were really quite entertaining =D

Next day morn was v nua. woke up at i-cant-rem-wad-time, had breakfast at the resort again, cos i was really too hungry. not worth the price again la, but wad to do? need to feed my hungry stomach. slacked and took nap in the room after breakfast =p. aftnn took the shuttle bus provided to Nagoya shopping centre. basically not much there either. but at least there were better food. Had A&W for lunch, but it wasnt really v nice either. wonder where to have the nice original A&W. bought KFC back to resort for dinner and bread for next morn's breakfast. went for a 1hr foot reflexology which was not bad. But still feel like kicking the person in the face when he massage certain areas of my legs.

A very slack weekend. but time still pass very fast. sometimes I wonder, y is time ALWAYS in a hurry, cant wait to fly by, refuse to slow down and it will always have the last laugh at those who try to compete with it.

-我喜欢这样跟着你随便你带我到哪里-

2009-04-29T01:19:00.006+08:00

and right now, the current song I am addicted to:

潘嘉丽 - 限时的遗忘
作词:易家扬
作曲:王爷斯禹

阴天的操场想你的肩膀
对著你的那个方向大声讲早安
往事像影片往后飞转
转了多少圈烦不烦
我想现在苏醒还不晚
也只能这样了我想

两人的冬天聊天等天亮
头发和永远原来都可以剪短
我也知道我可以生还
就算日子要天天算
但是我会很勇敢
会比你想的更勇敢

*限时遗忘让我跑过悲伤
他们不是说忘了梦好简单
那些年的一切今天一刀两断
离开时要把眼泪擦乾
我心里呼喊

限时遗忘不要让梦空转
要再次起飞就要更有胆量
站在起跑线上计算爱的能量
离开时要把眼泪擦乾
我心里呼喊

一个人看这一片天空
它慢慢的从灰色变蓝
一个人在这一片操场
跑赢了孤单流的汗
我为胜利鼓掌奖牌是阳光

like yi jia yang's lyrics too =D

2009-04-29T00:22:00.006+08:00

went to watch If There's Seasons today, and really enjoyed the performance. The songs were v nice. most of which were by Liang Wen Foo and are familiar songs, and some re-composed for this musical. a few are xin yao =D, have always like xin yao. Muz say Liang Wen Foo is really good, esp his lyrics. beautiful. Shi Xin Hui's vocal is damn good too, had always like her voice, very unique and has her own style.

Nice songs with beautiful lyrics which suits the plot perfectly, plus good vocal plus the live band, and you will get a superb performance. Can immerse myself totally in the show. oh, bought the soundtrack too =D. but of cos it cant be compared with the live music.

Definitely gg to catch it again if they will have it again next yr.

one thing which reduced the enjoyment a little was the throbbing pain of my tail bone. Hit it against the edge of a chair in my storeroom this morn while i was squatting down to get sth. Thot it wasnt serious, cos there wasnt much pain when I hit it, and it wasnt a direct hit. But it juz got more and more painful towards the end of the day. Will even hurt when i am laughing or walking. Now cant anyhow move in my seat when I find a comfy sitting position. hope it gets better tml.

And I am very glad I have you beside me to enjoy this musical =)

2009-01-18T01:11:00.005+08:00

王力宏 - 脚本
作词: 王力宏崔惟楷
作曲: 王力宏

你爱得好有趣就像一个编剧
你的一举一动都谱写着未来
世界也太乏味更需要编的很美
像第一次见面的场景

从来不曾怀疑牵你渡过了瓶颈
多希望创造一个美好的结局
用最真的感觉慢慢一页一页写
我只期待你陪我演完

我们的脚本要写的好认真
我已经看过太多的悲剧
能给一点点笑就算是笑中带泪
我也无所谓无所谓

你爱得好有趣就像一个编剧
你的一颦一言都谱写着未来
思念也太乏味更需要编的很美
像第一次分手的场景

看完这个脚本陷得好深好深
要我如何演好爱你的人
故事里男主角剧终时泪中带笑
而他知道这最好

2009-01-14T22:23:00.003+08:00

Really like the weather these few days, juz wish the weather is like that for half the year in singapore, haha. went for a jog and sat at the park until i dun feel like gg home =P. but it was getting a lil too cold cos the wind was quite strong.

somehow seems a lil addicted to jogging recently. like the feeling of running to the extent when its juz between me and my mind, and mp3. Do situps and leg lifts until my stomach muscles are totally aching, and all i see is the sky, all i hear is my mp3, and all i tink is to survive and breathe.
doubt this addiction will last long though, and another peak period is coming!

-矛盾心情怎样面对才好-

2008-12-19T23:55:00.005+08:00

突然好想你 - 五月天
词曲：五月天阿信

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

*突然好想你你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

2008-12-12T22:20:00.009+08:00

潘裕文 - 夏雨詩
词: 黃建州
曲: 鄭楠

等候在骤来的夏夜暴雨时间突然静止
滂沱的雨势中停泊两段迂回着的心事
忽然间所有的谈笑风生瞬间戛然而止
靠着我挡着你风雨之中不让你被淋湿

我们在这个城市流浪多少日子
却从来没有想到有人能分享你倾覆的心事

* 没有了你叮咛的日子耳朵总感觉怅然若失
生活上来了又去得了又失是你给我扶持
不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺
回头发现熬过这些日子总有你的影子

孤独在各自的人生旅途安静或是飞驰
遇见了彼此后两个灵魂不再患得患失
有些话想启齿欲言又止你耐心等我解释
微笑着不说话把我抱住让我像个孩子

在光阴这趟车上浪费了多少日子
遇见你却让过去所有的痛楚通通被稀释

# 没有了你倾诉的日子耳朵就感觉怅然若失
生活上来了又去得了又失你是我的坚持
陪我同游余生的日子就算走到了穷途末日
天涯咫尺在人生的白纸同愉快的写诗

2008-12-08T20:25:00.007+08:00

went kukup ytd for a nite stay and came back today late aftnn. basically its like staying in a kelong, with not much entertainment, so a nite experience was enough for me. we dun really stay on top of the sea, but rather, really more like swamp, esp when it was low tide, hahaha.

set off before 8am which was super early and reached there at abt 11 i tink, including breakfast along the way. was then told that we were gg to have lunch first b4 gg to the chalet. -.- breakfast at 9+ and lunch at 11+, my cousins (winnie & felicia) and i nearly pengz, hahah. had chilli crabs, prawns, sotong balls, fish, bean sprouts (cant believe i can still rem wad dishes i had, Lol). but the seafood there wasnt really v fresh and dun really like the chilli crab sauce. taste different, hah. after which, waited v long to take a boat to the chalet place.

when we reached, the first thing we did was to explore the toilet, wahhaa. there were 2 kinds, one which everything that comes out of you goes directly into the swamp below =D, and another the flush type. was quite tired, and so we slacked in the room for quite awhile. got pulled out by my aunts who asked us to go walk walk. and we walked until the place where we had lunch. after that, went to another kelong nearby to see the different fishes ppl rear too. saw this v interesting crab which has a really huge shell. Went back and we juz heck care and rested on the beds, hahha. usually i wun do tt, but ytd was unusual. duno y i was so tired the whole day, kept feeling slpy. nearly fell aslp and my another cousin barged into the room and asked all of us to go eat curry chicken and bee hoon (tea break i suppose). well, i suppose my brain is still working, cos i saw an insect on the bee hoon i scooped. cfm that it was an insect as it has got legs, omg. hahha. but the curry chicken was nice. N decided to go fishing after the tea break! ok, but i nv fish or throw the rod in. only sat by the side and see the sunset, haha. but my uncle managed to catch a fish! so exciting. but it died while he was trying to get the hook out, haaa.

Dinner was bbq food. had bbq chicken and satay, plus steamed prawns, fish, and otah. Food here was niceeeeee! prawns and fish were very fresh! plus there were fireworks for us to see while eating =D. highlight of the trip comes next. Fireworks! we bought quite abit of fireworks and play too. Very nice to be able to light the fireworks ourselves and see it juz on top of us =DD. well, but beautiful things are short-lived.

went back to the chalet to slack again. bathed and had supper at 11+. but the red bean soup not nice, hah. slpt soon after. initially was slping on this bed with 2 mattresses which my body will sink and drown into the mattress, and is v uncomfy. so i decided to squeeze with winnie. realised that there was not enough space for me to toss and turn and couldnt slp, so shifted to a top bunk bed juz beside the aircon. the blanket was quite thin, and i was almost shivering in the morn cos it started raining heavily in the middle of the nite.

next morn wanted to take a walk out again, but was put off by the rain. rain plus wind makes it super cold and umbrella doesnt really help. N i din bring a jacket too, hahah. went back to chalet place and watch my uncle disturbing crabs and mudskippers with the fishing rod, hahah. seriously too bored. he even bought water guns for us to shoot, ahahah. but the guns were lousy, cant even reach the mudskippers, lol. at 11+, took the boat back. Felicia and i nearly froze cos we were not in the shelter and the rain and wind kept hitting us, hahah. reminds me of the day in TW when we went yang ming shan, hah.

had lunch at the same place and came back lo! stopped awhile at a small shopping centre on the way back, but nv buy anything.

no idea why and how did this entry become so long..

the crab with a huge shell

2008-12-06T10:43:00.002+08:00

suddenly realised that i haven blogged in a mth and another mth zoomed pass juz liddat. and in another mth, its gg to be 2009 soon, omg!

anyway, had a couple of "bonding" session at work recently. last wk was some sharing and interactive day - discussed work at ritz carlton in the morn and had lunch buffet at the hotel. duno the price of the buffet, but dun really have much variety for the main course. kept attacking the salmon sashimi only, hahaha. aftnn was supposed to be bowling only, but the bosses came up with an impromptu activity which made us run and rush like mad, and ended up with body ache the next day. effect of aging =( oh and still cmi at bowling, hahaha

ytd went sentosa for retreat. morn had to run and rush ard again -.-, this time under the sun though it was at vivo. was super hot and sticky when we reached sentosa by noon. and soon after, it rained in the aftnn. was caught in the rain for a short distance when we had to make our way from the cool deck to board the bus. was quite shagged already, and practically stoning the whole aftnn. but still, managed to join some of my colleagues for dinner and drinks. reached home at 11+ and had to boil water to bathe cos the heater in my hse spoiledddd. how very primitive, HAHAHA. and needless to say, after the "rigorous" activity in the morn, woke up with a full body ache again the next day. shows that the jogs i have occasionally is totally useless, sadded =(

celebrated nana's bdae last sat at sizzler! aftnn went shopping for present with kok and winnie. not to say we were so last min, the day before, or rather the nite before, i had met up with tam and attempted to find sth already, but still..no fate with the presents, hahahha. not easy to shop for nice presents k..hahha. sizzler's steak was not bad, but i still prefer hog's breath cafe.

need to shop for xmas presents soon! haven shopped for xmas present for ages, since i duno when. or perhaps i have nv done so, really cant rem - another effect of aging, hahaha

2008-11-09T01:28:00.015+08:00

had a long and good slp ytd nite =D din really tink abt work unlike during the wkdays when my mind will be tinking abt the list of to-do-things and stressed, hahhaha.

went ECP today, but the weather wasnt as good as i wanted it to be. it was too humid and cloudy! for the same amt of sweat but not tanned =( oh and i tink after today no one ll dare to ride the couple bicycle with me, even if i volunteer to be at the front. its seriously quite tiring to be in front eh, arms aching trying to balance the longggg bicycle, cmi. its good to be at the back though. poor mag who has to cycle winnie ard today, hahah. but we decided tt next time we can ask kok to go cycling =D

anyway, attempted sth quite crazy. I was riding the bicycle with nana to go to the washroom, and was kind of rushing for time to go back. so, spotted the washroom, but there wasnt any bicycle track to cycle in. Decided to take a shortcut by cutting across the bushes, hahahha. seriously, the gap shd be big enough for the bicycle to go thru, but somehow, the bicycle ended up abit to the left and we went thru the bushes, HAHA. OMG. nana said i was siao and too high, LOL. too much work makes one go crazy. i din get any cuts, but poor nana got 2 cuts on her legs =\ i promise not to do crazy things again. or perhaps i will do it when i m riding the single bike, hahahah. cycled leisurely (really slowly) for abt 2 hrs only and was quite tired out, heh.

so kok, next time we go ecp again and i cycle u ard?? =))

seems like i haven been posting photos for quite some time, so here goes:

dun worry kok, look how pro i am. confirm wun let u fall one.

now i noe how it feels to rest arms ard ppl who are not as tall, hahhaa. kidding =P

duno wad we were trying to do, but definitely not trying to outcast u, winnie.

nice photo of tam, illustrating how hot it was. but weirdly, the sun is quite bright only at this spot

2008-11-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

i miss seeing the sunset on the way home after work, HAHAHA. seriously brain dead and half dead now. Been doing OT the whole of this wk, first 2 days until 8pm, and subsequently until 9/9+, Zzz. i foresee it will be abt the same for the coming wk, GREAT.

and it doesnt help that I keep making mistakes, which means wasting time. Really quite demoralising. but luckily i do have nice colleagues, and quite encouraging also. Tell me that its not tt bad since I am doing it the first time =D I hope it will be better the next time, heh.

oh, and its really quite scary to be alone in the office at nite..hahah

NOW, its the weekends!! finally can have my R&R =D

2008-10-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

i miss travelling abroad

2008-10-15T22:09:00.008+08:00

来到世界的角落，请保持安静，切断所有联络的管道，忘记时间，然后开始去了解这个既陌生又熟悉的世界

我不记得从什么时候开始，我喜欢躲进世界的角落
我也不知道该怎么说，只希望有一天你们会懂我的心
当我忧愁烦恼的时候，当我暴躁愤怒的时候
当我心情乱糟糟的时候，甚至当我快乐的不得了的时候
我都想换个角度，重新看看我的世界

我常常觉得这个世界好奇妙
它让人快乐，也让人忧伤
它大方得让人怀抱希望，也残酷的要人面对失望
我有时害怕寂寞，希望一直有人陪在我身边
有时候却喜欢孤独，厌烦纷扰的人群

- 躲进世界的角落（几米）-

nice book =DD

2008-10-06T20:46:00.001+08:00

南拳妈妈 (Lara) - 下雨天
作词：梁心颐(Lara)
作曲：张杰

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
我不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什麽失眠的声音变得好熟悉
沈默的场景做你的代替陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺（疲惫）
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不出那些差别
结局还能多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

V nice song!! addicted now =D

2008-09-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

ahhh, thigh muscles aching after the run ytd. morn still thot it seems fine, but it became quite serious in the aftnn. probably bcos of the heels i was wearing also, ahha. wore heels almost the whole day, totally suffering for my poor feet and legs =( hahah.

hungry hungry. the stupid ulcer is preventing me from eating much, though i tink i ate quite alot today also, with the free breakfast and lunch provided, hahaha.

slpy slpy. tink i was half stoning during shopping with my colleague juz now, hope she wun feel like killing me, wahahha

2008-09-24T21:51:00.017+08:00

黄丽玲 - 伪装

我的头轻轻靠在你肩膀
想说些什么却又说不出口
如果你和我只剩一秒钟
你想给回忆留下怎样的笑容

渐渐忘记我曾经为谁心动
也忘了曾想要追逐的梦

* MY LOVE MY LOVE 让痛消逝在风中
然後请你放手请你放纵去感受
MY LOVE MY LOVE 现在就卸下心中的伪装
改变自己其实没有什么错

让悲伤从此停滞在脑中
和所有苦痛一起让大海淹没
化了妆像隔离了阳光
面具它不说其实想真实的活

渐渐忘记我曾经为你心动
也忘了曾想要追逐的梦

# 每夜疲惫穿梭在噩梦之中
醒来时总是带着不安惶恐
你遗憾你又满心的期待
幸福会找上门来
只属於你的快乐

就卸下你的伪装

2008-09-21T22:55:00.003+08:00

was quite irritated this morn. woke up at 7+ and couldnt get back to slp, and this happens almost every weekends, cmi! but ytd was lucky as i managed to go back to slp until almost 11, haha. was seriously too shagged out on fri.

still, i should try harder to better control the irritation. no one to blame but myself.

sun blues~~

2008-09-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

went shopping with tam and nana ytd at citylink and this super big this fashion at mac donald hse! bumped into ASH, and ATTN KOK: she said its taking 200yrs to meet up with u, hahahaha.

din buy anything except a pkt of mint choc biscuits, though i wanted new tops, hahah. reached home with my calves muscles feeling v tensed again (this happen like quite frequently). wonder if its bcos i walked too much, but den again, its not like i walked the whole day..hmmm. and the tensed muscles are worse today, feel as if they ll cramp anytime while i walk. doesnt really help when i stretched/relax them also.

did eyebrow threading ytd too, and omg, it was damn painful!! hahahaha. gonna swear off threading. and my eye brow was exceptionally extra red as compared to tam's and nana's after the threading. even after i bathed, it was still a lil red, and a lil painful when i touch the area. sensitive skin, muhahaa.

ahhh, 4 more days to end of the wk~

2008-09-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

Professionalism is a nice way of putting hypocrisy.

2008-08-31T16:41:00.002+08:00

lazy lazy aftnn, or rather weekend. spent both days slacking at home, hee. sounds no life, but sometimes its gd to spend more time with urself =D. and esp since the wet weather makes it even nicer to hide indoors.

it has been 4 wks since i started working. hmmm, i tink i have sort of gotten used to the idea of working, no more slping in on mon to fri, no more carefree days where i can go out and play as and when i like and squeezing in the ever crowded train and bus. still learning stuffs and i m glad my colleagues are quite frenly and helpful =).

on fri, i was on the topic of our branch's peak and off peak period with one colleague who was teaching me sth. anddddddddd, i was horrified to find out that there was almost no off peak period, zzz. den i asked her how long has she not gone on a hol, and she said 2 yrs +. omg. this is seriously quite sian, i need to go hol at least once or twice a yr!!!

oh and n tue, went to see doc for the 4th time within 2 mths, cmi, hahhha. when will the stupid running nose and phlegm disappearrr?!

2008-08-28T00:01:00.008+08:00

逃避不一定躲得过，
面对不一定最难受，
孤单不一定不快乐，
得到不一定能长久，
失去不一定不再有，
转身不一定最软弱。

别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错
许多事情的答案都不是只有一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
你能找个理由难过
也一定能找到快乐的理由

chanced upon this on the web. Quite meaningful, hee.

2008-08-25T23:56:00.005+08:00

冲动 - 萧亚轩
作曲：黎沸辉
作词：葛大为．黎沸辉

很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松

*忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

2008-08-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

ahhhh, i miss slacking!! =(

2008-08-10T22:01:00.005+08:00

finally finished reading one of the novels i bought from TW, been reading it for ages, hahaha. still cant link the 1st part (now) and 2nd part of the story (recapping the past), cos the name of the male character is different. and partly bcos i dun really rem the front already too, lol.

like the 2nd last sentence of the book: 失去的时候，双手骤然放空，我们因此知道，原来曾经紧握着。

如果给你十分钟的时间谈谈关于你这个人的话，首先你会想到的是什么？

2008-08-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

lalala. 2nd post on a brain dead day! lol. so fell aslp at abt 8 in the morn today and woke up at b4 1230. out of the hse at 1245 to go grandma hse. fast fast, hahaha. woke up with a sore throat despite drinking lots of water b4 i slpt already, and a lil cough, Zz. but got to see my nephew! =) din see him for v long already, probably 1mth or so, hahah. still as cute as ever =DD. and i always take a few photos of him everytime i see him, can see his "growing process" hahaha =D. and hes attracted to orange colour, next time shall wear an orange tee when i see him. but i dun tink i have any, HA.

wed went out with the butaz. had dim sum at chinatown red star, cos i had cravings for dim sum suddenly, hahhaha. and mag said i always have freak cravings. =( dim sum is niceeeeeeee. and i love the century egg porridge there. if it came earlier, i tink i would have ordered a 2nd bowl, hahaha. was sort of the rubbish bin of the day. those dim sum which came in 4 pcs, i ate 2 while they eat one each. and came the char siew bun, only 2 of it. so i thot they juz take one each, and i ll juz try a lil. end up they 2 shared one, while i ate one myself. UNFAIR treatment!! but nvm, the food was NICEeeeeeee, lol. wanted to go shopping but ended up in kbox, hahahaha.

so went shopping on thurs with mag instead. bought 2 tops and a new phone, woooo. nth much to be excited abt over the new phone, cos its a zero function phone. but not tt bad looking. at least its abt half the thickness of my SE phone only, and its white! lol.

and i am still considering wad to do with the iPod. whether to sell or use it, hahaha. seems more rational to sell it, since i wun it much. cant bring mp3 to work, and i would use my SE phone for mp3. lazy to bring another mp3 player out. hmmm

2008-08-03T06:57:00.002+08:00

i tink i have the potential to club or play until 6am. or maybe the effect of alcohol on me is making me awake. went to st james power house ytd nite for NTU class 2008 alumni party. drank quite abit, more den usual, with some frens trying to make me feel more high, hahahaha. and even got to try flaming lamborghini! Wooo! shared 3 different glass with different ppl, which add up to probably a glass or slightly more. after tt took a few sips of long island tea also, and after awhile when i went to the toilet, i could feel myself getting a lil giddy, lol. but still manageable. probably cant take it if i drink more, hahaha.

hmmm, quite a different experience for a first time clubber? lol. but i still dun see the pt of spending loads of money on drinking (+ entrance fee somemore), making urself high and dance and some to the extent of drunk. Maybe the fun got cut off early today or sth. or maybe i ll understand the fun of it next time, hahaha. somehow chilling out and drinking at pubs is different.

thot i was already quite shagged at 1+ and went back home at abt 2+. had supper at mac cos the 4 of us (2 winnie's frens, nana and me) were kind of hungry. Reached home, bathed and went to bed at abt 4. only to find myself totally awake, with no sign of sleepiness and no yawnings at all. and it was so warm tt i couldnt take it and got up at 6+ to take a bath again, hahhaa. but i can feel a outbreak coming, Zzz, lol.

oh ya, and i was really damn lucky. there was lucky draw again, and i won the 3rd prize, which was a 4G iPod nano plus $100 taka vouchers. OMG! lol. got me a lil high when my uni frens somehow manage to find me and tell me the news, hahaha. cos our tix were in running numbers, and they noe i was holding the tix. Really lucky to have chosen the tix out of 8 or 9 tix, lol. but i hope i dun finish using my luck, ahhaha =D

more updates later, juz trying to make myself feel more slpy by typing a post, hahaha

2008-07-28T20:07:00.006+08:00

last fri went for mag's convo! and was her PA - a very good and responsible one, for the night, lol. not tt bad. i like to be the photographer, hahaha. but kept coughing though.

Sat went for HSS convo dinner at villa bali! woooo, quite warm there cos its outdoor. din eat much of the food cos wasnt really v hungry and the food was kind of too dry for my throat. had lots of fun taking photos here and there with many frens =D. oh ya, nearly fell down! cos the place is too dim and i missed a step while walking down a small flight of stairs, stepped on empty air and nearly fell, Zzz, hahahah. luckily i manged to grab christina or she managed to grab me (either way) juz in time to prevent me from falling. i tink ys grabbed me also, on my left. cant really rem the whole scenario already. happened too quickly, lol. luckily not many ppl ard too, lalala. oh den den abt the lucky draw. so happened tt ys was the first lucky one to get the 10th prize, and me seated beside her got the 9th prize. the 8th and 7th also went to 2 person sitting beside me and beside each other, so its like 4 consecutive ones, lol. $10 Haagen Daz voucher, i wanna go eat ice creammmmmmmm!

ytd had dinner at boon lay raja restaurant for maternal ah ma's bdae celebration. appetite was not bad, ate until i was so fullll, hahaha.

duno y, seems like not slping tt well again. always wake up once or twice in the morn and hard to get back to slp though i only slpt for 5 or 6 hrs. and when i get back to slp, its also only like being in light sleep.

oh ya, starting work on 4th Aug, next mon! no more sleeping in on weekdays already. wake up at 649am or earlier ! *sobs*

2008-07-22T19:13:00.005+08:00

范逸臣 - Missing you
作词：林乔
作曲：金大洲

以后都不要再联络听你说得很简单
黑暗中紧紧搂紧自己孤单有谁明白
难过懒得再去管泪要不要流下来
我也只好默默啃蚀寂寞留着痛灌溉

Missing you 抛去爱渐渐模糊的期待
难道我就这样痛撤心扉是自己活该
Missing you 我无奈难道是为了彼此伤害
好成为扮演愉快的天才

看照片散落在一床我再回忆中哭喊
若是自导自演的闹剧为何美好曾拥怀
就当作分手是因为我们在爱中看开
如果留不住我就只有孤独来陪伴

Missing you 我坦白突然背叛的未来
那个时间转角你就不再留意我存在
Missing you every night 连星海也嘲笑我活该
我还有什么资格放不开

陌生的人海去哪里找爱只有看不清等待
谁愿收留我的期待快来

2008-07-22T18:48:00.010+08:00

down with sore throat again, tis time plus cough, Zzz. stupid stubborn virus. hate having cough, cos usually i take a long time to recover from it. and it makes me have no appetite. like usually i need to eat 2 bowls of porridge at home to last me until dinner, but 1 was enough today, hahaha. and there are so many pills to swallow, EEEEeeeeee

planned to go trim eyebrow with mag today, but cant go again! sorry sorry, hahah.

convocation ytd. had to wake up at 7am, but duno y, i was awake at 640 already, haha. dad drove us down, and i m not really sure abt the driving directions, and ended up parking at a car park a lil far, hahaha. so ytd really mark the end of uni life and maybe even schooling life. time flies seriously, i can still rem first day at NTU (i tink it was orientation or sth), me and ys were also at nanyang audi wearing juz the academic robe, and 4 yrs later, we threw the 四方帽. and a group of us, econs mates, did tt literally. still waiting for the photos though, wonder how they will be, lol.

for now, juz a few pics tt my camera could take b4 it died on me. wonder if theres anything wrong with the battery or the charger, since it lasted for only about 30 photos when i charged it the day b4, Zzz.

went to watch dark knights with ys, and 3 of her frens at JP after that. only noe 2 of her frens, ok not really noe, see them before. but still had a fun time seeing ys and her fren bullying wk, while joining in occasionally, LOL. the show was not bad, like the effects, but the joker's face and actions was a lil scary at times. his acting is really good.

me and ys! pal who make lessons not tt sianz for me, though i always get bullied, HA

my PA of the day. took care of my heavy plastic bag, while being my personal photographer, cum many other small things, hahhaa

my bro cant wait to wear the motar board too?!

2008-07-18T18:11:00.006+08:00

seriously, i cant stand the cramps. half a day of torture, and even hot bottle cant seems to make the pain go away. and the worse thing is i cant fall aslp, at least if i m aslp i wun feel the pain. but no, my mind had to be awake to keep me tortured. Zzz. i duno wad to do when i am working next time. MC once a mth?! lol.

went out with kok (finally again! lol) and mag ytd! AS USUAL, waited for mag as she was late. i duno why shes always late and i m always early when i meet her recently, lol. wad to do? being punctual is a virtue tt is often not appreciated by most ppl, HAHAHHA. Juz kidding juz kidding! dun kill me plsssssssssss. but 190 go town during off peak hrs is really fast, lol.

wanted to go shu uemura to get our eyebrows trimmed since mag says our big day is coming next wk, but it was full even on a wkday aftnn, so made an appointment for today. but with cramps i couldnt go out and we changed it to next wk instead, hahah. and ended up shopping ytd, faints, lol. met kok after her work and went down to chinatown for BKT! wooo~ lol. saw ys, sh and winnie though when they off work somewhere in the vicinity, hahaa.

after dinner we walked down towards outram station, while tinking of wad to do next. and at one point, being desperate already, we decided to play the game of choosing orange or apple. we were more creative though, like the choices for mag are kiwi, strawberry and lemon (all fruits tt she dun like), for kok are black, grey and blue (3 colours she loves), while for me the choices are moss, mud and fungi (.... seriously, i duno how they got the choices out, so off la!). in the end we settled for dessert. so walked back to central again, and had dessert at azabu sabo. den home sweet home at abt 10, reached home at abt 11.

oh ya, and while me and kok were at her hse downstairs, we saw a cat againnnnnn. quite small one and looks like those which will follow u. so after my scary experience of being followed by a cat in sch before, and plus kok is also scared of cats, we decided to take the other stairs up to acc her to go back first, lol. managed to reach home safely with no cats following me too though, luckily, hahahaha. duno wads with kok's blk eh, always have many cats loitering there. waiting to pounce on her probably! hahahha.

2008-07-14T23:10:00.004+08:00

ahh, sick sick. down with sore throat, and slight fever. went to see a doc and she said i got throat inflammation. wonder wad very heaty stuff did i eat recently eh? throat damn pain, and not much appetite to swallow food cos it hurts everytime. but i still feel hungry easily! faints. morn ate bread for breakfast, porridge for lunch at 1, den 2 pcs of bread at 5, porridge (AGAIN!) dinner at 7+, and after i came back from the clinic, was hungry again. finished the leftover porridge and plus mee sua, half a pear and some cherries, haaaaa. the cherries are niceeeeee!! =D

looks like my craving for durians and BKT have to be postponed! SADDED =((

oh ya, outbreak too. irritating.

4gt to blog abt sth again, brain not functioning well today (only today!), hahah. was a lil amazed by the new temperature-measurement device. from mercury thermometer, to digital thermometer to the ear thermometer, and juz now the doc juz tap the thermometer at my forehead to get the temperature. so cool!! LoL. i thot she was gg to put it at my ear, and wonder for a moment wad she was doing when she tap me on my forehead, hahhaha.

take care peeps!

2008-07-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAG!!! =DD

2008-07-13T00:15:00.001+08:00

You're the time of day right around sunrise, when the sky is still a pale bluish gray. The streets are empty, and the grass and leaves are a little bit sparkly with dew. You are the sound of a few chirpy birds outside the window. You are quiet, peaceful, and contemplative. If you move slowly, it's not because you're lazy ? it's because you know there's no reason to rush. You move like a relaxed cat, pausing for deep stretches that make your muscles feel alive. You are long sips of tea or coffee (out of a mug that's held with both hands) that slowly warm your insides just as the sun is brightening the sky.

saw it on ys's blog..hahah. 649am, how is tt possible?! lol

2008-07-12T21:25:00.003+08:00

went out with mag, tam, ying, nana and winnie ytd to celebrate the triplet's (or since only two of them ard, use twins) bdae! finally saw winnie after duno how many mths. the last time we met up was in april to celeb her bdae? hhaha. anyway, b4 tt was in town with tam and mag. so met the rest at amk to have dinner b4 taking a bus from there to night safari! Due to the limited choices of eating places to eat at amk hub (after eliminations like: no japanese food, no thai food, no this no that), the best place to eat seems to be MOS burger, hahhaa.

reached safari at abt 830, and bought our tix. OH, and the toilet was quite scary, lol. seriously, i tink they can do without the animal's (lion, tiger or leopard?) growling sound. Very disturbing. and i m not the only one who thot so, the rest agreed too, hahaha.

went to watch the show, and some of the animals were really cuteeeee! esp the small small ones, hahaha. but i cant rem wad are they, except those easily recognisable like owls, tiger, leopard. One of the segment of the show was promoting environmental friendliness and there were these small little animals which picked up cans and bottles from the ground placed by the trainer, and they had to throw them into the respective bins. one of them was v funny, kept playing with the can (like juggling it) while standing. Either it is purposely playing with it, or it really cant get tt can into the bin, hahaha. but sooo cute!

after the 3omin show, we finally decided to get rid of the cake first. Open the box, and saw a v creative or uniquely looking cake, HAHAHA. a half melted one. SEE SEE, dun wan to cut at MOS burger!! lol. and still v on enough to sing birthday song there, lol! still manage to finish half or more den half of the cake eh, not tt bad. considering tt tam only eat 1 or 2 mouthfuls. sadded! waste ying's effort to go buy eh! hahaha.

den we proceed to walk the trail at abt 10pm..hahah. so look see look see. saw a tiger really really close up. its like lying in front of us, juz separated by the glass wall. and it did a cat walk too. stood up and walked one rd, flaunt its muscles, before lying down on the same spot near the glass wall again, hahah. got the chance to experience a really close-up encounter with fruit bats. we gotta enter this enclosure where all the bats were. imagine them flying on top of u, hanging downwards on the trees juz beside u. and the 2 birthday gals din wanted to go in at first, but we managed to pull them in, esp since its Tam's idea to go safari, how can we allow her to miss such a rare opportunity right? hahaha. the scariest is one where there is this really REALLY HUGE bat hanging openly (as in open its wings) and its really v close when u walk past. hahahaha.

oh dear, how come i seems to be narrating a scary encounter at safari instead?! hahahah. after tt took a few pic at the busstop outside safari with a night safari sign board, juz to show tt we've been there, LOL. quite impossible to take pic inside there. oh ya oh ya! and we walked to a place which was very beautiful! OMG! the mandai lake. picture a quite big lake in front of u, still water, quiet and serene and there are reflections of the trees, clouds and sky on the lake, with a not totally dark sky. lousy description. too bad, the scenery can only be photographed by the mind.

kevin drove me and nana home after that, while the other 3 took bus back to cck. i prefer the zoo over safari, but i guess tam shd be quite happy. since she saw many of her good frens there, nocturnal animals! =D

the 2 bday gals! forever 21!!! HAHAHA

ps: in future, lets juz have 1 candle? HA

2008-07-12T18:03:00.005+08:00

刘力扬 - 眼泪笑了
作詞：蓝小邪&严云农
作曲：郑楠

比想象中更痛你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你深深的

伍家辉 - 一个人白头
词：伍家辉/小寒/萧贺硕
曲：伍家辉

关反正灯总是那么暗
反正天总是那么蓝
反正我逃不开孤单

看那时间转得那么慢
少了你有点不习惯
听寂寞轻轻地飘散

一个人白头一个人白头
一个人能重来几次又被你淘汰
又哭又笑的对着镜子说

一个人白头看自己白头
感觉就像无助虚拟的自由自在
无声无息否定我存在
无声无息又被你淘汰关

为何灯总是那么暗
为何天却还是那么蓝
为何我需要这孤单

时间还转得真的有点慢
少了你还有点不习惯
听寂寞轻轻在飘散

nice songs! =D

2008-07-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

wondering if i really have the many-ppl phobia or really too used to slacking at home. 2nd time i went to bugis village today, i felt not so good. i mean, a lil sick. or perhaps its juz the weather, and bugis village is quite stuffy. felt a lil headache, and dinner din really go down tt well again. but i managed to sort of finish it and keep it inside. oh ya, and bumped into ah rong at bugis junction, hahaha. haven met up with him for ages, lol. went to Ms clarity's cafe for dinner and ben and jerry's ice cream.

2008-07-01T10:57:00.010+08:00

sometimes its a bad idea to blog once every 3 wks, cos by the time i blogged, i cant really rem wad i did over the past 3 wks, hahaha. but i m lazy to blog regularly, unless i m in the mood for it, HA. next time i shd juz put every outing in my phone's calendar, so tt i can refer to it, hahha.

met up with ys, shi hui and christina on the 20th after ys came back from HK! and she gave me a new bag!! hahahaha. Thks thks! =D. had dinner at this place at MS, but i cant rem wads the name now already (wads new?! =\). i rem i was v full though, or rather ate until i felt quite sick cos its all fried food! kinda dry, lol. chatted with them over dinner until abt 9 and went to boat quay to find mag! joined her at Harry's for her CEE chill out party, and the drinks were really cheap. only $5 for alcoholic drinks, lol. drank less den 2 cups only anyway, i m not alcoholic. and i still tink sticking to vodka sprite is the best choice, hahahah.

went ECP to blade with ying, nana, tam, and mag last tue! and tam was the driver of the day, hahah. thks tam!! i m sure all of us entertained u too while u were feeling sian abt driving, LOL. Fell like 4 or 5 times, but no any major injuries, hhaha. very hard to blade smoothly down slope, its like, i cant control my direction and its so fast! when i try to shift my legs a lil to change the direction, i ll feel unbalanced, and so if i cant turn successfully, usually the next thing i see is the grass juz above my face, HAHAH. oh ya, and i had this really stupid fall. was juz standing on the grass and drinking water (bought by tam, so nice of her! =D), and i DUNO HOW, my wheels suddenly slipped and had quite a bad fall. it was worse den falling while blading, lol. at least i felt a greater impact and more pain. i tink it was quite comical, though none of them caught the whole thing. and, i tink i wanna give up learning blading, lol.

after blading, we went to somewhere near parkway parade to look for kbox, and only to realise tt it has closed. so decided to have dinner first and go back JE for kbox. dinner was at this hawker centre, and OMG, the porridge was really nice. its juz plain claypot porridge, but its soooo nice!! sang k until 2 am and tam drove us home. totally SHAGGED. Tam is really nice on tt day, maybe only on tt day? HAHA. luckily she dun read my blog. Nana, be niceeeee, dun tell her? hahahah.

went to bugis on sat (28th) to go support SHINE event and also do some shopping. So saddddddd, i missed wu jia hui's live singing!!! =((. the weather was so freaking hot la, and the 3 of us din had much appetite for dinner, lol. i felt like puking when i see the food, though i still ate a lil. Kevin came and drove us and we went holland v for ice cream! mint ice cream helps to soothe the stomach eh, lol!

ytd went out with e butaz. finally get to meet up with kok, after me and mag faced 1 million rejections. had lunch and slacked at TCC =)

i miss TW 鸡排, ah zong mee sua, sausage, kao hsiung's Howard hotel breakfast (lol!). i wan to play and slack everyday without having to worry if i ll get a job!

Plan a very short trip to Batam/Bintan after kok is back? =DD

wu jia hui, xiao han and eric ng!

2008-06-09T23:49:00.005+08:00

ahhhh, went cycling today at ecp. Its the first time i did such serious cycling, started cycling at 1130 from ecp mac there to changi village for the nasi lemak! reached there at abt 215pm at leisure cycling speed and a few breaks in between. lunch break until 3+, den make our long journey back. and along the way, there is this super duper long straight road which really seems nv ending.

oh, and wads with ahhhh? my legs are temporarily paralysed, cant move and my butt, do i even have a butt?! lol

but i still tink its v fun, lol, alot more fun den jogging really, hahaa. juz tt u get an uneven tan for cycling =\. whole arms, from shoulders to hands and thighs are RED.

kok, wanna go cycling with me someday???? HAHA

where is the end ?

2008-06-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

after typing a crappish post, here's a more proper one.

been slacking since i came back from TW. kind of bored at home but dun really feel like gg out sometimes too (dilemma between the personality who wans to socialise and the personality who doesnt like to do so). Dun really know wad to do outside either (with reserves running low), and seems like most of my frens are quite busy except me, hahaha.

feel like gg for a trip again, ahhhhh, its addictive.

oh right, had a mini steamboat for dinner today. din had one at home for more den 2 yrs (i tink), and a big surprise awaits me. 2 cockroaches hid inside the steamboat box!! wa, sort of jumped and ran to stand at the toilet door while my mum took the mop and stab one of it which was outside. den the other one FLEW out and into some hole. asked my mum to pour water inside it, which din work. so asked her to pour hot water instead, and it floated out, lol! kind of er xin, but well, cockroaches are not meant to be ard rite? at least not to be seen in the hse.

somehow, the proper post is shorter den the crap one. shd crap more den =D

2008-06-08T00:06:00.003+08:00

right, time to update! considering that i haven blogged in quite awhile (juz a while really, time flies), i shall blog on sth more "interesting".

cant rem the exact days, but within this wk, i had 2 weird dreams on different day, and they are really weird, illogical, random, wadeva other words u can describe it.

the first one i had was about skeletons. Dreamt that i was in a house full of skeletons and we (me and duno who else, canot rem or din see the faces), had to fight and kill them to survive (save the mankind!!!).

the second one was i dreamt that my parents and i were transported to this other place (which is not Earth) to collect different species of crabs, and we still meet this 2 other people who were attempting to "snatch" the crabs from us, but of cos we gained ownership of them first.

HAHAHAHA!

now even as i typed it out though the two dreams were few days ago, i still tink they are hilarious, hahahaha. totally makes no sense.

so briefly narrate these 2 dreams to dearest 1/3 buta Ms TKH, who is so nice enough to interpret my dreams for me =) (for more details can go to her blog for frens who noe). Juz a short summary of her interpretation: according to her experience (Ms TKH took philosophy and studied on Descartes and his dreams argument), the skeleton dream meant i was too skinny like the skeleton, and the crab dream meant i shd be less crappy and treat her and 1/3 buta Ms MSF crabs.

wad i wan to say is..Ms TKH, luckily u nv majored or studied more on philosophy =\, and i tink Descartes may be quite sadded eh, by the fact that his theory probably din seem to have enlighten u, hahaha.

my own interpretation of the two dreams: the skeleton one probably meant its my deepest desire to contribute to mankind. the crab one probably juz mean, i have cravings for crabs (all sorts, like the snow crab and one other (4gt the name) crab i ate in Hokkaido). and like different kind of cooking method, be it chilli, butter, steamed, steamboat, bbq, black pepper .......

right, when are we gg for a crab feast??

2008-05-08T16:18:00.005+08:00

Ahhhhh, woke up with my back aching today. muz be due to the washing of clothes ytd. Washed the whole family clothes tt need to be hand-washed. goes to show tt i m really the "right" daughter!! HAHA! laze the whole morn, search for some information on the places we gg in TW, and packed the stuffs i bought from Japan, and den packed abit of the luggage for TW.

time to blog abt Japan trip, if not i have to blog alot when i come back from TW..HA

basically woke up v early every morn, like ard 6 or 7am there (Japan is 1hr faster). Weather was damn nice! esp hokkaido, which is cooler. got one nite the temperature even went down to 11 deg cel! shiok!! hahahah. n it rained the day after, and the temperature was also about 13 deg cel the whole day, damn cold esp with e wind! sometimes got "smoke" when we talk..hahahha. but its also v dry, my nose hurts when i breathe (same as when i was on plane) in the cold air. hair and skin also v dry..Zz.

1st day was supposed to be free and easy, but the tour guide offered to bring us to a shopping mall, AEON, nearby at a fee of 600Yen to and fro. so we went. had lunch at their food court. the buying food system there is quite interesting. at every stall, theres a ticket machine, where u have to buy the meal ticket first, present to the person at the stall, den she will give u one 'tracking' machine, which ll produce a beeping sound when ur food is ready. cool!! hahaha. but the food at the foodcourt wasnt really nice..ha. walked ard the mall, but cant find anything to buy, cos the price is super ex. hahaha. kinda sian to shop but nv buy anything.

2nd day fly to sapporo airport, at hokkaido. had crab feast! but the crab wasnt as sweet as it looks. hahah. den we went to Shiraoi Ainu village, their aboriginal ppl and culture. watched a culture show and was very much entertained by the host who can speak simple korean, chinese, and even hokkien..hahaha.

Next went to a bear ranch and see bears. the bear cubs were sooo cute!!! and u can buy apples and throw to feed the big bears. when they see u holding apples, they will stand and wave their arms at u to ask u to throw them, kawaii!!! hahaha

oh, in case i 4gt to mention, there are TONS of crows (wu ya) there. urusai desu ne.

den went to mount showa. erm.. i tink it was a volcano. the itinerary says: at Mount Showa, an interesting landform that was raised froma farmland after two years of volcanic activites. saw smoke coming out also! but the sulphur smell was quite disgusting.

after that was checking into a hotel at lake toya, and saw sunset! omg, v beautiful!! told my bro and cousin tt we should go watch sunrise the next morn, but erm..well, who can wake up at 4am in the morn?! HAHA. the sun rise there quite early, i rem i woke up halfway thru one nite(mayb its the nite b4) at abt 4+ sg time, n it was already bright outside. had dinner at a restaurant in the hotel, and watched a about 20 - 30 mins fireworks..Wooo~

3rd day, early morn went to sobetsu fruit farm, but it wasnt the fruit season, so no fruits for us to pick. But we made ice cream ourselves!! by juz using milk, fresh cream, 2 large metals bowls, ice and salt. the ice was placed in one of the bowl first, and salt is sprinkled on it to further reduce the temperature. den pour the milk and cream into another bowl and place it on top of the bed of ice and spin it. den eventually it ll become ice cream! hahaha

next took a short ferry ride to Nakajima island for a nature walk and see deers. saw lots of pine trees too!

right, den the driver took us to a place where we can see SNOW!! HAHA! so v exciting!! though its not falling from the sky, but its still so exciting to see snow!!! LOL. got the most of us so excited and happy..LOL. well, we only have one HOT sun in singapore. but its kinda interesting that the snow doesnt melt under the hot sun. the weather wasnt even v cold, i din had to wear jacket. ok, mayb its on its way to become water.

after all the excitment, we went to Jigokudani (hell valley), which was a sulphurous boiling pond. the sulphur smell was quite disgusting. checked in the hotel quite early, and after putting our luggage in our room, we walked ard the street juz outside the hotel.

4th day, went to Noboribetsu Date Jidai Mura, where we see culture from the Edo period. Watched a ninja and a geisha show. we were each given a piece of paper, which was for us to wrap 100Yen inside and throw to the stage after the show end. was fortunate that we din had to sit in front, if not our heads would have been hit with the coins..HA.

next we went to Furano Tomita Farm and see lavender !!! the lavender season was in August, but nevertheless, they grew small plot of lavender inside the green house for tourists to see ba. tried the lavender ice cream and bought quite abit of lavender stuffs, like a pillow for my mum, a smaller one for myself, one essence oil and the dry flowers. n my bro gave me one to cover the eyes one..haha.

i tink we went to jam garden and make apple jam and also the Anpanman shop too. cant rem which day was it tt we went..hahaha.

5th day went to Otaru and see the kitaichi glass. V exquisite, and was so tempted to buy sth but the price held me back (luckily i wasnt overwhelmed by impulse), hahah. went to a music box museum too, but only my cousin bought 2 musical box..hahah. den free and easy to shop ard. ate the cream puff which wasnt expensive, and even got free coffee! they have strawberry, mustard and original (?) flavour, liked the strawberry one best! hahha.

next visited Ishiya chocolate factory for the Hokkaido no. 1 famous chocolate biscuit - shiroi koibito (白色恋人). its really everywhere in Hokkaido, but only in Hokkaido. the boss dun export it or sell it in other places except Hokkaido. after that the guide brought us to a place to try a famous ramen, those traditional types which we see on TV..nice nice! noodles was v Q!

6th day, morn went to a seafood market to see see and also to Odori Park and took pictures, and also saw the Sapporo TV tower which is the NHK tower. den was shopping time!! went to Sapporo station shopping arcade and a factory outlet mall Rera. 3 of us plan a route to conquer all the shops we wanted to go..hahahah. i bought a levis jacket for abt $65.

took a nite flight back to Narita Airport (Tokyo).

7th day, tour guide brought us to 2 places to shop, one of it was Aeon again, n the other i cant rem the name already. 2nd time to Aeon, we went to hard rock cafe and i bought a T-shirt and a guitar keychain! i m so rich!! LOL. had lunch at the sushi shop and omg, the salmon sushi is damn nice. the variety wasnt alot, or mainly its becos i only ate salmon and the ika one. the salmon was so big that u can see the rice below it. seriously. in Japan, u dun have to go for sashimi, juz eat the sushi which is same as the sashimi in singapore. and it was quite filling. 3 of us ate 19 plates only, cost us abt S$11 or S$12 only.

den it was to the airport to wait for our flight, and home sweet home~!! was so hungry that i tink i finished my food in 10 mins. LOL. 8pm dinner leh..of cos hungry, not tt i m pig..hahahaha.

cant really rem which day eat wad food, but i noe we had suki yaki, and e beef was damn nice. cook the meat and den dip into raw egg to make it smooth (as wad we were told), but i thot there was no difference betw dipping or not. we also had a meal which was all steamed food, like steam veg, fish, pumpkin blah. this was eaten when we visited the Edo period thingy. ha. had a western meal at one of the hotel for dinner too, the steak was really good, and the seafood meal was scallop and salmon (i tink i had scallop and salmon almost everyday) which was delicious also. the scallop was HUGE..hahahah.

hmm, tried hokkaido milk beer also, but it doesnt have milk taste..lol. oh, and the milk in hokkaido dun have the milky taste one, and ur mouth wun have the "sticky" feel after drinking it. breakfast at the hotels werent fantastic. oh, and saw sakura also..wahahha. was quite lucky to be able to see it. saw the white one too! wooo, beautiful!!

photos erm..mayb tml? or after TW le..haaha. too many nice photos..LOL!

enjoy the holidays!!

2008-05-08T00:30:00.004+08:00

How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
任性 - sun yan zi
yea yea, din wanna pack my table and things I brought from Japan, feeling lazy la! So its not really ren xing, Hahaha.

Will you get far in life?
Now - Wang Ruo Lin
oh no, I m stuck at Now!!!

How do your friends see you?
save me - Corrinne May
Cant believe I m a life saviour, HAHA

Will you get married?
all that I need - Corrinne May
err, marriage is all tt I need? Hahahha

What is your best friend’s theme song?
听说爱情回来过 - jolin
hmm…skipped

What is the story of your life?
单数 - 曹格
wa! So sadded la!!

What was high school like?
never let u go - Janice wei lan
Yea, din feel like letting high school pass so fast, missed the crazy times and crazy frens..hahah

What’s in store for this weekend?
the best mistake I have ever made - wang ruo lin
right, gg to Taiwan and made myself bankrupt would be the best mistake I have ever made!

How’s your life going?
无能为力 - 张敬轩
life’s not within my control? hahaha

How can you get ahead in life?
酷爱 - 张敬轩
well, erm..how to interpret the title first?
Be cool to get ahead..hahha

What’s the best thing about your friends?
一直很安静 - 阿桑
dun tink I have quiet frens..i muz be the quietest among all already, HAHAHA!

What song will they play at your funeral?
free - corrinne may
freed upon death? Hahahah. I still wan to enjoy life!!

How does the world see you?
默契 - sammi chengi
have mo qi with the world~!

Will you have a happy life?
let’s start from here - wang ruo lin
start from here to have a happy life!! Yay!

Do people secretly lust after you?
爱的了解 - 戴爱玲
help me with this.

How can you make yourself happy?
a lonely september - plain white t’s
Being alone makes me happy? Even SADDED la!!

What should you do with your life?
pachelbel canon in C - george Winston
Er.. treat it as a classical piece of music, HAHAHA. so lame.

Will you ever have children?
擦肩而过 - li sheng jie
means wad?

What song would you strip to?
in love again - Janice wei lan
wa, ok not bad a song..LOL

What does your mum think of you?
对的人 - dai ai ling
oh yea, I m the “right” (perfect) daughter!! HAHAHA!!

What is your deep, dark secret?
牵牵牵手 - wu ke qun
holding hands can be a secret too, LOL

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
飘零燕 - twins
yes, let them be 飘零燕！！

What’s your personality like?
心乱如麻 - Janice wei lan
confusing/split personality! lol

What song will be played at your wedding?
可惜你不在 - dai ai ling
GOT SO SAD OR NOT!!

i dun tink got 5 ppl read my blog leh..hahaha
5 ppl:
1. Mag
2. Kok
3. Kai Wen

i only noe these 3 always tag, and i cant tagged ys since its she who tagged me!! hahahha.
All who read muz do!! HAhahh. quite fun la! juz tt the playlist i m listening to has too few songs..LOL.

2008-05-07T16:46:00.003+08:00

back from Japan!! more updates later

-blogged-

HAHA

2008-04-22T21:20:00.007+08:00

「越来越少和别人讨论想法
不懂的人再解释也无法传达
可以亲切却不亲密的我隐藏挣扎

越来越常去争执而不退让
现实的人最喜欢去批评谁傻
越过现在眺望未来的我寂寞坚强」

- 飘零燕 (Twins)

2008-04-21T12:17:00.005+08:00

酷爱-张敬轩
作曲：Vincent Chow 填词：林夕

无论怎得罪你说我是负累陪着我等于死去了无情趣
从前或现在当我是谁　你这一种伴侣
前夜一起睡　你却没廉耻竟讲出口你怕受罪
完全忘记往日为何　凌晨仍潮弄戏水

*难道爱爱爱爱爱我对爱情已死心贪高兴狠心敷衍一下却逼真的亲吻
我们这结局太不堪分不出真假的爱恨
无谓爱爱爱爱爱太过动魄惊心
我估错这个世界得到教训怎相信人命中怎么爱着你为人〔罪行〕

立甚么心肠　我对你极善良　如若你肯想想我这样受伤
你会知爱情毒于砒霜　你怎安心可不改漂亮
怎想象　共你已同享多少很真确晚上
一转头　缠绵后要罚离场

彷似幻像你给我的爱是玩具磨烂后变绝情
难为这洗劫永没罪证道别并无罪也没权问你内情

Rap:　我都唔知点解你现时对我冇晒感觉　以前嗰种快乐　就好似成为一种罪恶　连我心情　你都唔多觉　或者其实所谓爱情都只系互相搵一个补给　或者系一重即兴嘅幻觉　连自己都唔知道乜系喜　乜嘢系乐　几时有感觉　又几时冇晒知觉　就算你无突然失去下落　我哋之间都可能已经没落）（把失败换教训　不死总算幸运　看　全没罪案发生　慰藉众生不需责任　一起若像软禁　无疑离开先更　合衬）

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2008-04-21T10:46:00.003+08:00

this is for kok:

Jpn/Hokkaido: 30th to 7th May
Taiwan: 10th May to 20th May

auntie's memory failing i can understand, so write here den u can refer to it anytime..HAHA.
Mayb u wan make a list of things u wan me to buy for u in TW also. I haven reach auntie's stage, but my memory all along not good, lolll.

2008-04-14T20:07:00.003+08:00

can finally upload pics!!! but its not becos blogger got error or sth, its becos somehow (i duno how) the blogging mode is in "edit html", rather than compose..so..HAHAHAHA. damn goonz!

but anyway, damn cute rite!! wahahahah. the 1st pic was taken ytd, during his 1st mth bdae. can actually see from my carrying position, tt i dun really noe how to carry comfortably..hahahah. so scared when i carry him la, too nervous and sweat alot! hahaah. but got many adults surround and support, so no scared no scared, he wun fall..LOL.

2008-04-14T11:16:00.005+08:00

最长的夜晚

原创歌曲: 最长的电影（周杰伦）

我们的噩梦
是很长的夜晚
辛苦的经验
让它变成纪念
课本放面前
不想让自己停懈
望着它慢慢闭上眼

读书的时间
一刻都不能闲
即使多眷恋
被窝里的温暖
与睡魔纠缠
换来一双黑眼圈
考试真的都叫人很疲倦

再给我些时间
让我把书再念一遍
别让脑袋放空
我书没读完叫我怎么能停
记得我说要努力啊
记得我说要坚持阿
我只好忍耐
继续在噩梦里

Written during last sem. erm..credit goes to ys as well?? i tink she gave me the idea to write..wahahaha

good luck to all frens for the upcoming exams! Jia you!! =D

2008-03-16T21:24:00.007+08:00

ahhhhh, outbbreak again! the new ones keep coming out and the old ones wun heal!!
I gonna slp at 11 everyday!!! (say only). right..more reasonable target: slp before 130am, den eventually at 1am. slping at 1am is quite a significant improvement as compared to slping at 3am for the past wk, and 2am usually.

and my parents booked the tour to hokkaido liao! yay! I m broke!! volunteered to pay for my own expenses though my mum also volunteered to help me pay, but hmmm, feel uneasy to spend her money on my own stuffs. no freedom. hahaha.

wad else to update? nth seems as exciting as gg overseas now. oh, got kind of hooked to playing the games on viwawa. shit. lol. i ll try to get past tt stage SOON. yaya..wait till i level up, buy more skills, etc etc etc..HAHAHA. juz kidding. i ll get sian of them soon, i tink. hee

oh right! my cousin gave birth ytd!! today went to hosp to visit my cousin and the baby. born at 8.53am, weighs 3.6/3.7 kg..hhahaha. so cuteeeeeeeee, though all new borns look quite the same..but still, SO CUTE!! ahhh..somehow i cant upload pics to blogger now. ll try again next time~

2008-03-11T11:21:00.002+08:00

i tink i haven blogged in a while..

wooo, we are gg TAIWAN!! taking up a 8 days tour package which practically brings us all ard taiwan, and gonna extend for another 3 days at taipei. Praying hard that the extension will be approved..haa.

sch is still quite busy..and assignments are boring..

1.5 mths more to mark the last exam paper of uni..

well, 2 interesting (?) qns came to me randomly and thot i ll post it here..see if i ll get any reply..heh.

What do u tink is the most shocking thing that i will ever tell u, which
(Q1) u can accept, and
(Q2) u cannot accept or find it hard to accept

right, back to doing assignment b4 ys kills me..HAHA

2008-02-26T01:01:00.003+08:00

feeling damn sianz, no mood to do work, no mood to do schedule for taiwan, no mood to talk. but no worries, at least juz now i still had mood to eat. and hopefully i will have the mood to slp.

seriously, i dun understand why i face insomnia or bad sleep so frequently, at least too often for my liking.

and this 3 lines suddenly appear in my mind
有些话说不出口
有些路不敢走
勇气不是人人都有

we really do need alot of courage in life dun we?

2008-02-22T11:11:00.004+08:00

Onitsuka Chihiro鬼束千尋－ Gekkou月光(Live)

very powerful and great live performance

thks mag! XD

2008-02-20T01:00:00.003+08:00

ever since i first heard 沙漠 written by 陈环 on Spop hurray many many wks ago, i liked it alot.
To my pleasant surprise, i found out today that someone uploaded it on imeem music!! yay!! and chen di yan sang the song well too!

词曲: 陈环

有时候我会沉默
拼命闪躲
选择放肆的生活

#而你的心是片沙漠
包围着我
天空辽阔我却没了寄托

*一直飞翅膀也会疲惫
在你空空的世界体会天冷天黑

% 感觉到
我在你的世界慢慢疯掉
想要回忆里所承诺的美好

^ 我想逃
我害怕被狂沙吞噬掉
再也找不回从前微笑

repeat #*%^^

2008-02-19T21:01:00.008+08:00

time to take a breather from work!

watched P.S. I love you last wed with kok and tam at lot 1. A touching and sad show, but i thot it could have been better. some parts could have been more detailed and happened at a slower pace, or have more letters..hahaha. would have more tears falling den. n this is the show i liked the most among the 4 shows i watched recently. wanna read the book though..hee.

last thurs spent V-day bbq-ing with a group of uni frens, that was organised by Alice. Wooo~ quite a fun and crazy nite with many crazy people around..hahahah. it was also the first time i have ever "捞" yu sheng on a table! cos there are too many ppl, and the ingredients were too much. It was also the first time i tried drinking beer+orange juice+sprite..hahaha. i din noe beer can be mixed this way, the smell of the beer, which is the reason y i dun like beer, was covered, yet retaining the bitter after taste of the beer. after gg for this bbq, i also "koped" some better n much faster method of preparing food. For eg, no more wrapping mushrooms and sotongs..juz cook in a tray on top of the grill! wah, so smart! and its very time and labour efficient!! XD

sat had another bbq again for JC gathering, at the usual place near my house. A few ppl couldnt make it last min, but in total 15 (including me) turned up. Not that bad, at least half the class could make it..hahhaha. Was quite worried that the food we ordered and bought were not enough, because by 9+ pm, we had already finish bbq-ing most of the food. Its the first time that the food finish so fast, usually we bbq until midnight..hahaha. but nonetheless, there were still some food left, mostly the stingrays. the bbq wholesale is really quite expensive, mayb next time should juz ask my mum to marinate the wings and meat for us. It would have saved us quite abit of money. the stingrays were too spicy (again), and my family commented that the mashed potato were too creamy and cheesy, but not sure wad the others thought. the stingray was really spicy, because when i had it for 2 more consecutive meals, i could easily eat one fish w half of my rice, and sweat like mad..the chilli has already penetrated into the fish meat, which made it worse la! but my blender (the one my ys + others gave to me for the stall tt time) spoil!!! ahhhhhhhh!!! angry!!

after bbq, tam, ying, mag and kok stayed over at my hse for a chill-out session. nana came by later, chatted and watched sammi concert with us. after watching sammi concert, we watched jay's concert dvd. i prefer sammi's, so i m really not quite a jay's fan huh. watched CJ 7 online too, and the 七仔 was extremely cute!!!!! HAHAHA. love his expressions and reactions..really v cute and funny. cried when stephen chow died, even though i had expected that 七仔 will somehow save him, since he has got reviving power. after all the concerts and show marathon, it was lights out at 5+am. was very tired and sleepy by the time already, but i still couldnt fall asleep -.-". i was very physically tired already, and my eyelids were very heavy, but my mind still seems to be active, or perhaps 3 person squeezing a mattress on the floor is abit too uncomfy to slp. poor ying who keep coughing, and the warm water i gave her doesnt really help too.

ying woke up at 8 and left first cos she had to teach tuition at 10, and i admire her dedication..i cancelled my tuition in the aftnn, cos i was really too shagged. after ying left, i slpt on the bed and conked out totally until 10..hahaa. laze until 11+ b4 sending the rest off. had lunch, and made "summer snow" to eat, as my mum had freeze the last can of coconut juice and we had a mango whihc was bought quite long ago. great heat relief. went to nap from 4+ to 6+, and had dinner. attempted to do the HE411 assignment, but i stared at my word doc, and the word doc stared back at me..so it was a failed attempt..hahaa.

mon morn wanted to wake up at 9am (8hrs of slp), but i went back to slp after turning off my alarm and slpt until 10! gosh..hahaha. quickly woke up and studied for korean quiz in the aftnn. well, the quiz "buang" already..haaa. it was such a long quiz la, and the teacher muz have taken much effort and time to prepare the 10 pages (i tink so) quiz, which includes listening, vocab, grammar, 2 comprehension, and a short essay. the easiest part of the quiz has got to be the listening..if listening is considered the most do-able part..u all can imagine the rest of the paper..hahaha. anyway, sort of rushed thru the paper also la, cos after finishing the listening, we only start the rest of the paper at 530! how to finish in half an hr?! we were given extra time, but i still gotta rush to NIE lo. couldnt write the essay, cos i nv study vocabs and i only wrote one sentence for 9marks..lol. most prob gg to SU it anyway.

today did the HE411 assignment. tonight and tomorrow nite are supposed to be spent doing korean essay (500 words!!) which is due on thurs. but after gg for a short run juz now, my brain is malfunctioning again. next wk will be the one wk break liao! still gotta submit the biobiz assignment on wed, and do another HE411 assignment. Many many readings to do for the assignment..Zzz.

oh and ytd i was damn blur and careless la! took 172 home at nite and saw donovan on the same bus, so we chatted and i nv listen to my phone mp3. when alighting from the bus, my phone slipped out from my pocket and i din realise!! alighted from the bus and reach into my pocket for my phone to look at the time, and TO MY HORROR i realised that it dropped on the bus! rushed home and papa drove me to cck interchange. was VV lucky! a kind soul saw the phone and gave it to the bus driver who den returned to the interchange office. wahh, i am really very very grateful for the honest and kind passenger and driver as well. saved me alot of trouble, inconvenience, time and money. good karma?? lol. should continue to do more good deeds and earn more good karma.

grp pic of us 12 gals w half covered face..hahaha. the masks were sponsored by shi hui, who only mentioned it when we were abt to end the bbq..dots..lol. nevertheless, we still got time to take quite many funny pics of us wearing it.

ys and me~!

me and shi hui~!

half of S09 class pic

nana, ying, and me trying to take a pic, with tam, kok and mag trying to destroy it by being in the background..HAHA

2008-02-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

CNY was BUSY BUSY and really like 狂欢. and the price of that is 2 days of tiredness and sian-ness.

CNY eve woke up at 7+ to go sch from 830 to 1130, den went to ah ma hse n bai bai. 捞鱼生 and ate shark fins too! wahh..nice nice. but we shouldnt be so cruel to the sharks hor..yaya, i have decided not to eat shark fins anymore!! perhaps home-cooked one can be an exception?? simply too good to resist. this yr we also became more skilful when lao yu sheng, no abalone on the floor and ceiling, but there were carrots and radish on my right arm until my shoulder.

den 6+ walked from ah ma hse to somewhere at keat hong there with my eldest aunt family to have dinner tgt. yup, to save the huge and tiring preparation work, we dun eat reunion dinner all 30+ of us tgt liao.

chu 1 was the usual routine, morn go papa side ah ma hse and have vegetarian breakfast first (vegetarian for half a day every yr). slack, stone, eat lunch, play cards until late aftnn den go a distant relative hse, where we continue playing cards (cos theres nth to do, n we were all really dozing off)..hahaha. after which, i went to mama side uncle and ah ma hse for dinner. the buffet dinner wasnt nice..heard that they changed the cater..ahhhh, really not nice. prev yrs one were not bad.

chu 2 wanted to slp more, but my papa n mama woke me up when they got back from mkt. after lunch, got ready to set off and do more visitings with my eldest aunt, youngest aunt and 4th uncle. visited 3 more distant relatives (papa's aunt and uncle) in total, and could have been 4, but the last one wasnt home when we went..hahaa. dinner was at kfc for us 9 kids (definition of kids here: not adults means kids..w age ranging from age 10 to 20+), while the adults had rice at the coffeeshop juz outside.

winnie (cousin) followed us back to my hse and "rest" a while, and at 9+ vincent (it feels so weird to omit the gor..lol) drove us to jp to watch late nite movie, ah long pte ltd. first time i watched a show with so many cousins..11 of us in total, though 3 of them were cousins' gfs. the show..hmm..not worth a $9.50 show la, becos there is like not much of a plot, but mark lee was quite funny. i rem there was this part where a sacarastic remark was made abt singapore sth (cant rem), which was supposed to be funny i guess, but no laughter can be heard..i wonder..

after the show, me n my bro and 2 other younger cousins went to winnie (and vincent) hse to stay over. watched final destination 2, which was erm..a lil gore, but ok, i hid one eye behind the pillow. i duno since when do i not like gore/bloody movies..thot i was ok w it last last last last time..haaaa. slpt at 5+ and woke up at almost 12, juz in time for my aunt's curry! yummy~

so spent chu 3 at my eldest aunt hse (gathering there) and in the evening went to mama's side youngest side hse for another gathering. papa left at 9+ to drive my bro to his fren's hse while me and mama stayed on, since the cousins who stayed opp the road from my place drove 2 cars, and can easily send us back. played blackjack until 10+? den the adults somehow learnt another new game and my cousin sent me, mama, and my ah ma back at 12+, while the rest still continued. me n my cousin were already v slpy liao, but they still not tired..0.0. tink i slpt at 3+..haaaa

chu 4..hmm, did my parents woke me up again?? hahah, i cant rem. but anyway, woke up feeling vv slpy and tired la. aftnn went over to my aunt place, and saw my cousin's frens from NTU, army etc. sat for a short while, and headed to a coffee shop at woodlands for dinner w papa side relatives. the food tt day wasnt quite up to the usual standard, which we ate b4 (actually i cant rem how the food tasted the past few times we ate), but the food tt day wasnt nice, and according to my cousins, it wasnt the case previously. most prob due to CNY crowd and shortage of chefs in the kitchen. we had to wait quite long for the food to be served oso..n the kua zhang thing is..when the 1st dish came, our rice din come, so instead of continuing to wait (since we have already waited vv long), we scoop the rice ourselves!!! best liao!! hahha

next day woke up mon liao!! CNY hol over!! time to work hard!! and i was vv slpy and lethargic on sun and mon. ZZzzzZZz. today was much better.

oh today went to watch kungfu slamdunk. better show den ah long? haaaaa. tts wad i thot, at least the cast was much better..haaaa. abit unrealistic (as can be expected) and lame at some parts, but overall was not bad. see the way they played basketball and slamdunk oso cool! i wun mind if ah sa got more scenes though..

tml watching p.s. i love u! wah, suddenly movie marathon?? haaa. but lot 1 cinema there having renovations and no more nachos to buyyyy!! so sad! ahhhhhh..yaya i noe i ate last fri when watching ah long, but still..the craving doesnt stop..ahahaha.

b4 we 捞

after we 捞

sumptuous lunch!!

2 cousins, whom we dun meet often..the boy is so cuteee!! and shuai! lol

the 4 who slack/rot/stone tgt at ah ma hse, ok leave the 2nd left guy out cos he seldom go ah ma hse liao..hor hor!!

3 models~

erm..another 3 models? LOL

2008-02-07T00:45:00.000+08:00

新年快乐！happy new yr to all!!

get more angbaos! XDD

2008-02-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

went back to PJ this morn to look for lao shi (Ms Chin). she still looked the same, but doesnt seems as tired as the last time mag n me bumped into her 1+ years ago. erm, chatted for abt 1 hr? told her abt the gathering we will be having on the 16th also, but so suay laaaaa, she's watching a concert w her frens on tt day, and so cant join us. n she asked us to take a updated pic on tt day n send her..haaa. she still rem me as short-haired..0.0". i guessed we din look for her when we went back to collect cert in 2004. and she say she thot mag was short-haired oso..lolz.

now feeling abit 百感交集, cannot put into words with my limited writing ability.

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2008-02-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

the idea of a concert to me is enjoying the songs sang by the artiste on stage, immersing oneself in the atmosphere where thousands of similar others cheer and sing tgt, showing their support for him/her. how many ppl actually have tears welled up in the middle of a concert? how many concerts actually bring tears to one's eyes?

Sammi 2007's show mi concert juz caused me to do so. and i m not even watching it live (yea, i shd have..). there were 2 segments which were touching: one when she mentioned about her father, and talked a lil abt the period when she "disappeared" or took a break from the entertainment cicle, the other was when she read a letter that she wrote to herself.

some of the things she said really left a deep impression on me:

人生是一场自己与自己的竞技，与人无关，与人无尤，战胜一个懦弱的自己，更胜过击败其他的生命。

人在每个阶段都需要勇气面对自己，面对将来。

i had told myself since some time ago to listen to my heart and follow wad it says. stay true to urself, be urself and life would be happier. but, how easy is that? with all the different voices, both internally and externally, i juz cant seem to hear wad exactly it is saying. it is confused, and making me confused, making me unsure, making me feel lost.

back to the concert, during the encore, she actually appeared on stage with a slice of bbq pork (rou gan) in one hand and a humongous lollipop in the other, so we see the sammi w a huge tinge of craziness. and the songs were great (ok, i admit i skipped the dance medley part) but still, the other songs were vvv well sung! *thumbs up!*

the past week had been quite tiring (i duno y either), and i tink it ll be more so during this coming wk. oh, and a bbq on 16th (0.0). ahhh, hope i wun be bombarded with the same old many qns by relatives during CNY!!

time for bed!

2008-02-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

十字路口

有多少人站在这里犹豫不决
有多少人站在这里裹足不前
有多少人站在这里彷徨无助
看着天上的白云缓缓飘过
看着多少人擦肩而过
时而艳阳高照
时而寒雨刺骨
多少次在矛盾里挣扎
多少次在边缘反复徘徊
天使与恶魔的斗争
理智与不安的拉扯
日复一日却不知如何取舍
太多的应该和不应该
太多的可以和不可以
究竟是真的不懂
还是欠缺违背理性的勇气

2008-02-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

went to check my eyesight today. the optical 88 at lot 1 gave me a shock, after the guy use the machine n told me tt my left eye increase 150 deg..can fainttt! so went to another optician at my hse there, n he use the "manual" check..only 100 deg lo. ok, not only..100 is alot at this age..wad have i been doing to my eyes?

so i should come up with some measures to prevent further deterioration:

1. reduce use of laptop (impossible)
2. no reading of notes/journals/studying after 11pm when the eyes are tired (easily done)
3. no watching of tv for more than 2 hrs per day (also easily done, some days i dun watch tv at all)
4. no playing of solitaire showdown on msn w mag (take it tt i nv say this too, cos its impossible. the game is too addictive and exciting!)
5. paint my room green (dun tink it ll help cos its not scientifically proven that green is good for eyesight)

so conclusion, deterioration of eyesight cant be helped too much.

2008-01-19T13:55:00.000+08:00

爱情定格 - 郭采洁

作词:易家扬
作曲:阿沁(f.i.r)

天空没颜色
时间隐形了
寂寞在心中翻跟斗
认识的你已经不同

明天怎么呢
我们怎么了
现在看照后镜的我
在泪光里动也不动

如果爱可以摄影
底片是多少厘米
每一格都是记忆
但对不起我在哪里

我和你
看着天亮说着未来打着雨伞穿着毛衣
听着钢琴笑着吃饭闹着分手哭着写信
过去都在眼睛里瞬间暂停

我爱你
像个孩子一样任性像个大人一样伤心
世界上有多少的人跟我一样为了爱情
掉泪然后走下去

是我爱记得可是该忘了坐在地铁中想着以后

juz realised this song is written by yi jia yang and composed by ah qin!!! wahh!! both i like!! guo cai jie is the gal who acted in yan zi's yu tian mv, and also ah qin's qi shi hai ai ni mv..din realised that its the same gal in the 2 MVs..hahhaah. but i only like 2 songs from her album..this ai qing ding ge and 诚实地想你. at some parts of the songs, her voice reminded me of guo mei mei..haa.

2008-01-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

学会 - 王菀之

作词: 吴青峰
作曲: 王菀之

弹奏的黑白琴键
你猜不透你学不会
我的旋律你听见
弦外之音你误解

并肩的肢体语言
不够整齐不够绝对
沉默想讨你安慰
你却当作是责备

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
大部分的时间
选错了座位

湿透的落雨大街
脚步仓促水花纷飞
我的忧郁你发现
心底秘密却搁浅

独自的空荡房间
没有光线没有音乐
多希望你在面前
却满室寂寞云烟

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
大部分的时间
选错了座位

事与愿违
我流下雪白的眼泪
来自忽略你的纯粹
只忙著核对预设情节
和现实的你脱轨

释放世界
或许爱是学会看见
自己和你无可取代的美
不是给自己太多界线

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
如果远走高飞
会不会思念

不是给自己太多
不是给自己太多界线

弹奏的黑白琴键你猜不透你学不会

i like this song! both the melody and lyrics. its written by the 苏打绿 lead singer, who also wrote 4 other songs in her album. N wang wan zhi is a 创作歌手, composed all the songs in her album!

sch so far..hmmm..

the econs module is chim..

had quiz on the 1st korean lesson..and i only got 39 (duno how much is the total, but most likely fail). luckily its not graded. the teacher said this time she will try to reduce on the quizzes and have more listening instead. 0.0 listening seems worse den quiz, cos they always talk so fast! had a hard time catching up during 2nd lesson too, cos there were alot of new vocabs which werent introduced formally during level 1, n my oral still cmi..hahahha. N it doesnt help tt i cant see the whiteboard clearly..time to change specs!! SOON!! ahhhhhhhh, is there a possibility tt my deg has become lower rather den higher (yeah..a v low possibility.. /sobz)

shakuhachi. haven get to touch the instrument yet, but i also tink its not gg to be easy to get a sound out..lol

biology in biz. quite slack..lol. missed the 1st intro lect, but it only lasted for half an hr anyway. 2nd lect lasted only 45 mins. so i waited 3 hrs for a 45 mins lect../fant. haaha. gave an intro on some biology stuffs.

went running on wed..did some push ups and sit ups too. right..tummy and arm muscles ache until todae..lollllll. lousy laaa! but sometimes really quite shiok to feel the pain. hopefully lecture can end early every wed so tt it can be my "running day"..hahaha

oh..bought the tix to angela concert too liao../oops. now i m next to penniless! yay!!

2008-01-13T15:46:00.000+08:00

went sentosa again ytd!! this time went cafe del mar, and the weather was vv good (too good at times..haha). but it did rained a little as we were waiting for the bus to go back to vivo, and there was smoke from the road..so could tell how 'good' the weather was huh. the toilets there were spacious and clean too..a major difference from the public ones..haha. well, for the pricey food and drinks they sell there, i guess its reasonable that they provide at least a clean toilet, in addition to the chairs for suntanning..hahah. n next time i muz rem to wear a cap to protect my face ^p. n yesh, the next time is tentatively fixed on 2nd feb (again?!). tink i shd go get the islander card or sth huh..haaaa.

den went far east to shop and see quite a number of frens. saw jackson, ah zhen, michael, charles as a grp shopping, den saw ah mei too!! wahhh..hhahaa. n met peggan oso! while walking from far east to cuppage, me n kok saw jie he. singapore is small, with only those few shopping areas..hahahah. had dinner at waraku, and for the 1st time we tried sake. the meaning of sweet sake and sweet cocktail are quite a big contrast..lol. it tastes erm..juz alcohol, a little sweet when the sake juz touch ur tongue, but the after taste was v bitter. 2 of us ordered 3 dishes (2 main + 1 side) though we werent vv hungry kind..oops. the side was a cream base soup with oysters, veg, mushrooms..wahh..nice!! addicted to waraku's cream base noodles/soup..wahahhaha

last thurs went to MS xin wang cafe for dinner with uni clique (excluding ys) too, as a belated bdae dinner/celeb for christina? ha. it will soon become my one of the most frequently-visited spot..haaaaaaa.

oh, and Angela is finally coming to singapore for concert on the 29th march!!! I WANNA GO!! its at expo!! but kallang oso quite ulu..perhaps the travelling time to both places are quite the same..hahahha. n theres so many cat 1 seats! faints.

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the sake!! ok, it looks much nicer in when u see it with ur eyes den on pic

2008-01-08T22:49:00.001+08:00

Ice milo taste so much better den UHT choc milk. the latter juz reminds me of the sec sch days morns when..er, i was on the underweight programme..Zzz. I wan meiji plain fresh milk!! ahhhhh, still got one and a half more pkt of UHT milk to finish !! shd ask my bro to drink finish all !!! lol.

anyway, a few mths ago i did the MBTI personality test and the result was ISFJ. was bored ytd and did it again..lol. and got the same results. tried the chinese version too, which was translated from the eng one..some of the qns sound weird..haaa. the chinese one gave a ISFP though, but i tink i am lingering between J and P. Info on ISFJ personality can be found: http://www.personalitypage.com/ISFJ.html

searched on the net for the word introvert, and found some interesting facts. For one, being introverted is different from being shy, the latter being nervous and anxious ard ppl (i will only feel so if i m faced w many many ppl), while the former need time alone to recharge energy, esp after spending long hours with ppl or socialising (quite true for me). I tink it depends on with whom the time was spent with too. Introverts are minority in the US population (mayb not for Asian countries). They are also often oppressed (more for the Western society) and misunderstood.

Being introvert is also neither a choice, nor a lifestyle, its an orientation, that is just different from the norm. There's no right or wrong, and shouldnt be ostracized or look upon as abnormal.

For more info on introvert:
http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_introvert
http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch

For the differences betw extrovert and introvert:
http://talentdevelop.com/articles/GiftIntrov.html

Top 10 Ways to Protect Yourself from Wrong Accusations as a Result of Being an Introvert:
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/how-to-be-a-happy-introvert.html

oh, and one of the quote which i like - introverts are a minority in the regular population but a majority in the gifted population (y i m not gifted? 0.0?).

sch has started but as all can see, i m still quite slack..hahhaa. my first lesson starts on thurs..lalala~

2008-01-06T15:40:00.000+08:00

oh ya, after being reminded that i 4gt to write abt gg ktv on last sun, i realised tt i also 4gt to type down sth which ought to be remembered..haha. on xmas eve at sentosa with ys n sh, we wore xmas hat for half the day! n we 3 crazy gals got erm..quite abit of attention, though i wun tink its v weird to wear it on xmas eve..lalala~ =P

this wk had been more hectic den the wk before (hectic here means playing more)..hahhaa

watched AVP2 on wed nite w ys, and 2 other frens whom i got to noe thru the invigilator job at expo in early dec. wasnt really my kind of show, but the seats at cathay cineplex was really comfy! can fall asleep!! hahahaha. (so if u r sleepy and catching a movie, dun go there). Anyway, one of them was a magician and i was v much fascinated by the tricks he do!! HAHAH!! so cooool and amazing la!! but learn oso need $$$ k..wait till my enthusiasm for it grow out of control first before i pay to learn..hahahahha. its gd to have another 一技之长, so that at least i can still earn some money for rice, if i go jobless..XD

thurs went shopping w mag, tam n nana! din manage to shop finish far east though..had dim sum dinner at marina square, before heading to DXO to attend a bash organised by NYC for some youth volunteer thingy. kinda loud and messy (not in the rowdy sense) for me, but it got better when we went upstairs..haaaaa.

fri went shopping w tam n nana again!! this time we conquered bugis!!! wanted to continue where we left off at far east the day before, but not enuff time, and i was quite dead beat by dinner time..hahahah.

sat woke up early in the morn (8+) to go funan w my bro to collect the free desktop (upon upgrading of the starhub maxonline plan). waited for abt 2 hrs...Zzz.

sch's starting tml!!! goshhhhhh. did i even had a 6-wk hols? it flew by way too fasttttt!!

oh rite..n i haven meet up w kw! (big hint for KW to see) HAHA

hope when sch starts, my slping disorder will disappear too!! ahhhhhhhhhh

又是一个失眠的夜
这次我该翻着书页
还是听着抒情音乐
带我进入黑色世界
这并不是我的自虐
而是周公存心恶劣
纵使我已那么疲倦
却依然残忍的施虐
无奈滋味谁又了解

2008-01-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

别人的所谓

手里握着咖啡杯
喝着冷却的苦涩滋味
该拒绝还是委屈自己的胃
多么狼狈但已无所谓

手中那纯白堡垒
坚强能掩饰的多完美
让人无法透视隐藏着的黑
多么可悲孤单在加倍

他们说的所谓
我选择沉默不理会
若急着一味追随
会否成为时间的傀儡
错过多少沿途中风景的美

他们说的所谓
不代表着我的心扉
我会给自己勇气
做好迎接挑战的准备
不却步的寻找自己的方向

the first 2 and last 2 para like doesnt go well tgt..wadeva la, juz take it as a 乱乱来thingy..hahahha ^P

2008-01-01T20:18:00.000+08:00

Here comes 2008! Happy new year to all! May it be a smooth sailing and good year for all frens and wish that all resolutions (if any) will be fulfiled! =D

Visited Sentosa's Underwater world and dolphin lagoon for the 1st time last wk (dun luff, its not funny). Fascinated by all the different kind of fishes, and sharks, dugong, sea dragon, hermit, jelly fish, few kinds of stingray tt will splash water on u when u touch them. n the dolphins were vv cute!! n smart too..performing all the tricks..hahaa. Fun day w ys n sh! XD

celebrated ying's bdae on sun. went sentosa again for tanning..but erm..not much tan la, cos it rained. the 4 of us (mag, kok, ying and me) pushed the blame to poor nana..lol. e 4 of us went sun tanning first, at abt 2+. The weather was still bright n sunny, so hot tt i cant help but get into the water, though i initially din wanted to =P. Nana joined us at abt 4+, n after reaching the beach station, she went to change into beach wear. N the funny thing (funny thing is a nicer way of putting bad luck) happen..the moment she changed finish n was abt to step out of the toilet..it poured!! BIG rain!! so we quickly packed n went to hide under the shelter. after sometime, the rain subside a little, and nana came over n looked for us. While waiting for the rain to stop, we decided to wash mag's mat using the rain water..n the rain stopped..yay! so happily, the 5 of us went out and want to continue our tanning again. When Nana had finished applying the sun block lotion, it began to pour again -.-" ( see..Nana was not fated to tan on tt day, n we shouldnt have asked her to join us..lolx - hoped i wun be killed by nana). right..so we went to hide again (playing hide and seek w the rain). the rain den stopped again, and no more grey skies, but to be safe, we asked nana to go to the beach first, n see if it really wun rain again (i m not as mean as the others k..at least i accompanied her hahahaha). bleh. anyway, after tt only tanned for awhile more b4 we had to bath and go vivo for dinner at Bosses. Food was not bad, loved the spinach and wasabi mayonnaise prawns..the other 2 dishes 3 cups chicken (wah, sounds so weird) and black pepper chicken strips were not bad also..okok, everything is nice! but the food was quite ex..haaa

sat played mahjong at PY hse..kept luffing la! crazy ppl playing mahjong = 1 nite of stomache from too much luffing =P

2007-12-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

ok, from now on, like wad mag said, our age is a secret! well, a woman's age and weight are always a secret..haaaa.

ytd went out to celeb my bdae! but the greatest part of the day got to be the beginning and hte ending..hahaha. Got a big surprise in the morn, as my hse got raided by mag n kok!! at 11+ mag appeared b4 my door, using her finger to cover the peek-hole (wad do u call tt thing??), and i was v skeptical abt opening the door, cos mama says, cannot open door to strangers, somemore this stranger purposely dun wan to be seen which is even dangerouss!! den, i heard a voice saying: she dun wan to open the door leh.. hahhaha. tt gave her away la, was quite surprised already..n when i open the door, i only see her alone, so i thot she was talking on the phone w kok, n kok told me many many times tt she gotta work ytd and can only join for dinner. So, after i let mag enter, i juz locked the door, and den kok appeared~ faints..hahhahaha.

they bought pasta mania for lunch, when the day b4 mag still say go settler's cafe for lunch..haaa. ok, according to mag, they initally wanted to buy stuffs and cook here (attempting to burn my kitchen in the process i guess), but time was too tight..hahahaha. yea, so had lunch at my hse, and kok gave us the souvenirs she bought in HK. Mag, the chief organiser, den said settlers was cancelled becos the rest cant make it, and so we are heading to kbox instead..lol.

it doesnt matter how many ppl pei me, its the ppl that is the most impt! so still had fun at kbox w the 2 butaz, and sang some quite jing dian songs, songs u may nv hear in a million yrs, but u ll still noe how to sing automatically..hahahhaa. N made us feel old..LoL. oh ya, n one of the person whom took drinks orders from us asked if we were 18 when we wanted to order alcoholic drinks..faints la. 18 abit kua zhang leh..haaaaaa

dinner was at waraku w the rest of the jc clique, and had a dark choc cake from rive gauche. the cake had a layer of biscuit at the bottom, which was v crispy and niceee..yummy yummy!

last activity was the chilling out at acid bar! there was an acoustic singer tt nite, so the atmosphere was not bad, n we played some guessing games..hahaha. this time round, we ordered baileys irish cream for the 1 for 1 promo..i prefer the one i drank quite some time ago at my cousin hse..haaaa. this one was too creamy.

had a fun time! and THKS mag n kok! really happy n quite touched k, though it doesnt show on my face. wad to do, i cant control my facial expressions leh..hahahah.

last fri (14/12) had dinner celeb w uni frens too! went spageddies at marina square..food was v nice too!! (OMG, i have been eating n eating, w/o much detoxification). but i 4gt to take pics..hahahha. though julia din join us, me n ys still bumped into her at xin wang cafe when we had our desserts there..haaaaaa. desserts were nice too!! mangoes mangoes mangoes!! hahahaha

sat (15/12) went out for dinner w my family, and on the way back, my dad drove us to buy the v famous rochor beancurd. So qiao again, i bumped into jl when me n bro were leaving the place..haaaaaaa. beancurd was vvvvv smooth n silky..oh man, i m missing it again! hahahaah

I love all the presents too..Thks to all! =D

2007-12-18T01:39:00.000+08:00

生活中的插曲
可以是动人旋律或感伤音律
回荡在空气中牵动着情绪

生命中的路人
有的住在心中有的只是过客
擦肩而过往反方向各走各

四季的变换
经过了春夏秋冬和花开花落
许多事变化无常无法掌握

坚信是否就能继续执著

2007-12-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhh..stupid running nose wun recover! its making me tear and feeling slpy~

2007-12-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

after attending the resume writing and professional imaging course for 3 days over the week, i tink gg for an acting class seems to be more appropriate. @ interviews, u have to present urself in a way to fit their crieria, and do it all almost perfectly - little signs of nervousness, appropriate body languages, gestures, sitting posture, language, with an ever present power smile which shd best look natural, n not plastered on. @ networking sessions, u be friendly, sociable, and say things which will let the other party leave a good impression of u.

or perhaps its juz that i dont have the qualities required, which is y i find that its actually an acting session, being someone not really me.

i juz love being in my own little world

世界的虚伪，社会的现实，要求我们必须妥协
妥协于梦想与实际, 妥协于迎合敷衍
微笑带着面具演着另一个陌生的自己
演到最后，是否会连真正的自己也看不清

2007-12-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

went cafe iguana last fri to celeb nana bdae..well, it was my 1st time there. hmm, abit on the noiser side, but i guess usually open spaced place is noiser, n the whole place was v packed! food was ok but i cant rem the names of the food we ordered, except fajita..hahahaa. the rest are all out of my memory. there was 50% discount for drinks ordered b4 9pm and after 12 pm, so we ordered a jug of black berry margarita and one vv big glass of mango margarita to share. i prefer the mango one..hahha, but the price was quite ex..w/o the 50% discount, the jug of margarita (poured into 7 servings for each of us) would cost abt $110. faintsss. hahahha.

right..now shd i confess abt the chou shi me n kok encountered (note: not me only). err..i will juz make it short n sweet..its not every now and den u get chou shi rite, so its worth to be remembered..LOL. me n kok were supposed to go buy the cake and den reach the place at 7, while the rest joined us after they ktv session. the 2 v clever ppl, were not sure of the correct exit to go out at the mrt station and ta dah~~! we saw them outside the mrt station! yesh, the grp of ppl whom we were only supposed to see at the cafe, not at the mrt station..lol. but luckily tam and mag reacted quite quickly and diverted nana attention to the display inside the shop beside them..hahhaha.

my reaction was quite funny la, cos i suddenly duno wad to do. tried to hide the cake behind kok, while i ask her so now wad? den we went to hide. so fun..hahhaha. n my phone rang! cafe person called to say they ll only reserve the seats for only 5 more mins. right..den we juz ran..lolllll. ran away from them and to the cafe..LOL. quite lang bei.. duno y i always have to 'run' when i m with kok, either chase the bus, mrt, traffic light, or now run away from them..hahhaha.

ok..pics are more interesting, and say much more:

fried calamari w a duno-wad sauce at the bottom..quite standard

the mango margarita! such a big glass~! have a bitter after taste, which i described as abit similar to like theres mango skin being blended..haha. but i still like the bitter sweet taste

birthday girl ! smile~. ok, y is the candle not lit? its not becos theres no lighter (we went to specially buy a lighter cos no one rem to bring from home AGAIN). its becos the wind from the fan on top was tooooo biggggggg!! even if the fire from the lighter is not blown off, the fire can only remain on the candle for 1 sec.

ok, i 4gt the name of this dish, but inside is prawn.
i oso cant rem the name of this..its fish, but its so hard, it tasted like chicken. den theres rice n black beans at the side.
erm..this is erm..inside is lots lots of rice w chicken..isint really to my liking

cheers~!! black berry margarita..not bad too. abit of sour + bitter.

finally..i NOE the name of this dish! fajitas! we chose the mushroom one, and it came as above, which we had to wrap it w the sauce n become as below:

my fav dish!

its good to try different things once in a while~

after tt took a short stroll along the river, and sat down to chat. great meeting up w all of them again! n we ll be doing so again in 2 wks!! yay!! hahahhaha

2007-11-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

Exams are over! yes..this also implies that the 2nd last sem of my university life is over.

时间真的过得很快，它不会为谁放慢脚步，更不会为谁稍作停留，当你还在原地裹足不前时，世界早已把你抛在后头.

went to the bank today, only to realise that i can only close the acct tml, which is the 6 mth minimum period, if not a $30 charge will be imposed. *faints*

2007-11-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

世界很大我却渺小
风很洒脱我却懦弱
天空蔚蓝我心却灰
海很平静我却凌乱
落叶重生我却迷茫

歌很悲伤触动心弦
夜很漆黑伴随失眠
雨很凄冷刺得心寒
雾在弥漫模糊视线

世界很大但也悲哀
风很洒脱但也寂寞
天空蔚蓝但也会哭泣
海很平静但也有风浪
落叶重生但也会凋零

歌很悲伤但是种安慰
夜很漆黑但总有曙光
雨很凄冷但能期待彩虹
雾在弥漫但会云开雾散

梦也许美却握不到
海鸥自由翱翔我却原地盘旋

2007-11-16T16:01:00.000+08:00

给未来的自己 - 梁静茹
作词:黄婷作曲:李正宗

站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤独的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由

阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞

找一个人惺惺相惜
找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙我是独一无二没人能取代
不管怎样怎样都会受伤伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强我很坦荡

夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待

我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦给未来的自己
一天一天一天推翻一天坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样

有一个人惺惺相惜
有一颗心心心相印
抛开过去我想认真去追寻未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强我很坦荡

我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦给未来的自己
不管怎样怎样都会受伤伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强我很坦荡
未来的你会懂我的疯狂

2007-11-01T18:18:00.001+08:00

Nobody's home by Avril Lavigne

I couldn´t tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn´t help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What´s wrong, what´s wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don´t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside,
find a reasons why.
You´ve been rejected,
and now you can´t find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don´t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can´t find.
She´s losing her mind.She´s fallen behind.
She can´t find her place.
She´s losing her faith.
She´s fallen from grace.
She´s all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She´s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She´s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

2007-10-24T13:04:00.000+08:00

考试

考试要来咯学生好痛苦
不要再犹豫赶快去拿书

昼夜读读读嘴都翘嘟嘟
翻着厚厚书全是外星语

嘴巴没得动手却快僵痛
眼皮真沉重头脑要爆破

大声喊一喊头发抓一抓
墙壁撞一撞发泄一下下

回到书桌前继续再备战
努力熬一熬战期很快过

考试完之后讲义全烧掉
管他A或C 逍遥快活最重要！

exams in less than 3 wks! ahhhhhhhhhhh~

2007-10-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

歌曲名称: 夜的方向
歌手姓名: 张峰奇

剩下一个人的时候
有一点寂寞
找些话题对自己说
想起那天你离开我拒绝挽留
你却回眸看我一眼都没有

一句安慰你都舍不得给
是什么理由不值得你为我难过
整个冬天一个人过一年
曾经的回忆是我放不下的狼狈

夜的方向我搞不懂
星星的指引我迷惑
在星空下迷了路
仅存一丝绝望跟着我
夜的方向看到什么
一个人无厘头在漫游
彼此还是选择沉默
了解孤单的懂的享受

我抬头往上瞧
月亮星儿在嘲笑
讽刺我找不到寻不着
夜的方向我看不清依靠
我的思念在远方
谁能代替我收藏
一直逃避不断压抑不想开启
埋藏爱的日记

夜的方向看到什么
一个人无厘头在漫游
彼此还是选择沉默

wah, v nice. i like the lyrics too!

today went to the jobs central career fair at suntec with ys and chris. but nth much la, finish walking ard in mayb ard 1.5hrs only..hah. So, i m still in the midst of searching for wad i wan. no actually, i noe wad i wan, but its impractical n i ll die of hunger..LOL. so muz look for 2nd best alternative..hahahah.

anyway, on the way back from suntec to mrt i saw kok..wah, v scary cos we were sms-ing awhile ago, n suddenly see her..lol. but u shd noe i m in suntec area la, since i mention donuts, juz that u duno i was gg home while u were juz gg to meet ur fren only..LOL

2007-10-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

看透 by 石欣卉

忘了多久没有一个人走走
忘了多久没有静下心回首
尝遍岁月的冷暖无休
有什么是不可看透

谁预料下一个路口
是欢喜还是新愁
谁计较成功或失败
是否相伴到白头

梦像一杯斟满的酒
已揭示得失错漏
添加每处欢喜悲忧
都会溢出曾经的拥有

多少次放弃拥有在同一双手
多少次妥协争斗梦里心伤透
走过铅华尽洗的深秋
得到失去竟同时碰头

2007-10-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

sun woke up at 645am to go ah ma hse to bai bai for ah gong's death anniversary. It has already been 2 years, time juz flies so fast. due to the customs, we din eat any tang yuan during the past 2 yrs, and hence there was a HUGE demand for ah ma's tang yuan. oh man, it juz taste so delicious - soft on the outside, and very Q on the whole, simple yet authentic. One of the wonder of home-made recipes~. I had 2 bowls of it! hahahaha. well, most of us had 2 bowls so I m not being greedy..hahahha.

tang yuan~! yum yum!!

celebrated kok's bdae on the 29th ! had dinner at ichiban boshi @ suntec, and dearest mag bought cake at bakerinz first b4 queueing for dinner cos we couldnt get a reservation. seems as though i nv contribute anything, but actually, i was doing the most impt task kkkk..i was the bodyguard for the birthday gal and kept her company the whole afternoon!! hahahahahaha

8 of us ordered a whole table FULL of food, such that the waitress had a lil trouble putting all the food on the table..hahahha. but i liked the beef soup, baked mushrooms with butter, soba and sashmi best!! oops, i tink i listed most of the food already..lolz

cake was banana walnut, initially i thot the flavour was abit weird, but it tastes gd..hahahah. goes to show that bakerinz cakes are really good..lol. since the bdae gal cant possibly be the cut-cake aunty of the day, I have to take over her!! wasnt skilled at cutting the cake though..hhahaha. And we finished the cake!! oh ya, dear mag 4gt to buy lighter/matches to light the candles. somehow its always neglected, cos me and kok 4gt to buy too for mag birthdae too. but its actually the most impt item! hahaha. luckily we managed to borrow from the restaurant =D

left ichiban at ard 10pm, ah mei headed home first, and the rest of us decided to go xin wang cafe at marina sq to slack and chat. And erm, we ordered drinks, porridge and toast (food again!!) during our 3+ hrs there..haahha.

table full of food !!!

say cheese~

wad's ah mei doing?? hahaha

kok is rich with a stack of $$$ !!hahahha

3 of us! cheese~

at xin wang, we sat at table 22 (such a coincidence!)

me and yingz having twin backs! LOL

ytd went suntec fish and co to have dinner with ys and shi hui, and bought donuts from donuts factory! bought 6, and todae had 3 already..HA. gonna have sore throat soon from all the choc! yay!

how i wish i can run away from everything!!

关上门没有人找得到我，跑到非洲跑到月球躲一躲！

yay!!

2007-09-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

fell down in sch today!! oh man, i tink shd be quite embarrassing, but den i erm, sort of used to it liao, though i tink i haven fell in public for quite long..LOL. Fell while walking up stairs at the bridge leading to outside LT1A there, and i tink there is a group of ppl behind me becos i saw 2 179 at the busstop. but i stood up almost immediately after the fall, and juz walked to a nearby chair before checking my knee..hhahaha. and my new handphone got a scratch!! ZZzz. Nv bleed but theres scratches and vv big bruise on my right knee..PAIN !!!

went to IMM cafe cartel for a late lunch today..i had a beef stew w rice, and the rice was v little! so i ordered another rice from the waitress who seems to give a "troubled" look. i dun believe no other customers ever ordered extra rice! HA. anyway, the rice cost $1.50!! even after 30% student discount, its still $1..v expensive!

quite broke recently..wonder where is all my money spent on?!

2007-08-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

its aug already! cant believe sch will be starting next wk!! gosh~ will have to be tortured by GYS soon again!!

after much consideration and analysis, we have decided to close the stall next fri, which means last day will be on 9 aug (wad a significant day..lol). haiz..quite sad abt it, but 长痛不如短痛, its really best to stop operation given the numerous obstacles and situation. during this 11 wks i have really quite alot of things, and noe doing biz is really not easy at all, more difficult den wad we really expected. n it really takes up alot of energy, so do biz cant be a part-time thingy at least until a system is set in place.

now that we have decided to stop, we had to inform the regular customers abt it, which was v difficult..haha.. duno how to tell them abt it. ytd nite a gal who always buy summer snow came down to buy desserts again, n when i told her we ll be closing next wk, the response she gave: huh, y? ahhhh, made me n kx felt so sad. some might tink we were juz 'playing', but of cos we arenot. i wouldn't have spent so much time n effort if i was juz playing..can do so much other things during the hols. but some customers also tink we shd focus on our studies first, n tink abt doing biz after we graduate..haa.

2007-07-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

lalala~ last thurs went to celeb tam and mag's bdae! went to california pizza kitchen (correct?) at forum shopping mall, which to me was quite a ulu place..walked quite long w kok to reach the place cos we went to paragon to get the cake first, n went 7-11 to buy a lighter for the cake..hahah. the pizza there was not bad..we ordered one w avocado one, which doesnt looks nice..but it taste great! even better den the other pizza we ordered. i tink the other pizza tt we ordered was burnt, tts y not v nice.

the 2nd pizza..called club pizza or sth

the pizza with avocado

pizza auntie of the night~

the 2 desserts we ordered which looks similar and also taste quite similar..hahah. but both are delicious!

just now u see it, now u dun! gone in 6 mins!! gosh~!

kok & nana w mag~

yingz & me w tam~

wahh..fierce mag!! *scared* HAHA

tink kok said sth wrong which made mag FURIOUS!!

but dear nana is not affected at all..hahaha

2 女主角 of the day

grp pic

cant rem wads so funny that made them luff so hard..hahaha

many many hands attacking the cake

credits to the cake auntie also~

today went for dinner with mag and kok at lot 1, initially our after-dinner-activity was pool..but we ended up gg to the arcade..hahaha. ages since i last played. played a shooting one with mag, and also the basketball! wah..after shooting the basketballs, my right arm hurts..lol. but its quite addictive. gg to the arcade is more expensive den playing pool!! hahaha

2007-07-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

working at the stall n running a business is tiring!!! but i muz persevere!!! haaa

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAG!!!!!!!!! =D

2007-07-11T16:09:00.000+08:00

爱情万岁

歌手：郑秀文

爱情存在舆论性承受
这批斗与你笑着革命
市内全民皆兵听着流言之声
我若能拥抱你已是险胜
受尽炮轰任由恋爱没有世界共鸣
维持着爱护与尊敬
未怕没有亲友赠兴
宁愿牺牲也与你以爱捐躯
从历史中见证这轰烈一对
爱到倒下去浮沉是非中一对伴侣
谣言里人潮里寻求我幸福至少无罪
那怕走得再崎岖
言论之中去见证爱情万岁
未似对正常情侣你我纵是残余弱旅顽抗爱下去
爱情长路如绝岭
无论伤口再中箭也未怨命
世上如何孤清对望仍然温馨
都不可封杀恋之风景
彼此不必世界的嘉许
只想讲生命至少也许
每人亦有最珍惜伴侣
旁观的怎么拼命插嘴泼下冷水
宁愿牺牲也与你以爱捐躯
流下这可歌可泣动人眼泪
渗进沙漠里悬崖上开花一对伴侣
曾难过曾憔悴
寻求我幸福更加无惧
爱侣不需要心虚
承受子弹去爱你也是壮举
若有了我们儿女
与你故事遗传下去能爱到万岁

2007-07-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

错了再错
歌手：张栋梁
作词:陈佳明作曲:李偲菘

退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎能挽回什么你就不肯说我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰为何你说谎我却受惩罚你不如就用刀刺下
**我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活你存心用尽我宽容为什么连谎言你也刺破爱
或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解厌倦的疲累成了一片黑伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉完美的借口泪无辜留下你不如用乱箭射吧
*即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没给我的爱像一根绳索你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲全为了失真的承诺为什么连谎言你也给刺破为什么连谎言你也不说

2007-06-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

17/6 - went to 龙王洞 to see a natural cave, which was abt 1+ hr walk. looks like those wu xia shows cave scenes..lol. the temp inside the cave is v weird..during summer it ll be cold like ard 18 deg, but during winter, it ll be warm. so plus the rain, it was quite cold inside. went to other tourist attractions with more mountains, and yuan jia jie also. but as it rained almost the whole day, we could only mainly see clouds on top of the mountain..lol. we waited for some time there, hoping tt there would be v strong wind to blow the clouds and mist away..n it really did! so we got to view the scenery for 2-3 secs..LOL! there was a place called 十里画廊(ten mile gallery)..at first i really thot we were gg an arts gallery, turns out tt we ll be taking a tram and see the scenery along the way..hahaa.

18/6 - last day at zhang jia jie! had breakfast and set off at 8+am. first went to a 土家妹 shop selling their local specialties. Next went to Dr. Tea to try their different types of local tea. Also went to an art gallery (real one now), which displays drawings by a local famous artist. he used stones found on the hills of zhang jia jie and grind them into sand and den used the different colours of the sand to draw. the drawings all looks v real! amazing!!

went for lunch which was mushrooms pot..yummy~ especially with their noodles..muahha. den was the long long journey to 宜昌 for us to take ship to cruise the yangtze river. the rain delayed the bus journey, and by the time we reached the harbour to take ship it was already ard 9pm. on the bus, the tour guide taught us to sing 山歌, their folk songs, and she chose ppl to go to the front of the bus to sing la! me n bro both got 'chosen'. our tour grp was actually quite small..15 ppl only, with 4 children (including meeee..lol). the other 2 children were 11 and 15 yrs old..n the rest were parents and 2 grandparents. so actually all of us got along quite well la.

19/6 - woke up at 6+ again, for breakfast at 730am. for the 3 days on ship, the breakfast serve almost the same food..zzz. but the soup noodles was v tasty..n i got sick of eating eggs..lol. there was only 70+ ppl on board, and we had fixed seats inside the restaurant. we split into 2 tables, and had one waiter assigned to serve juz our 2 tables. the rest of the passengers were from shen zhen, and HK. the service was vv good..asked for our comments after each meals. for lunch, we had 豆沙包 as one of the dish, which was vv delicious! so we told the waiter, and he said he could change one of the dish, which doesnt taste as nice, to dou sha bao tml lunch..wahh! lol. again, we had lots of dishes for lunch and dinner on the ship also. even more than prev days, because they have many more appetizers b4 the main course..haa. oh, after breakfast, we disembark and went on shore to view the dam. bro din join us cos he was sick!

after lunch, went to the deck to see how the ship sail past the 闸门. the ships have to go thru 5 of these because the difference in water levels on the upstream and downstream were too great. so the ships have to go inside and den close the gates for the water level to be raised, and go thru to the other zha men n so on. the whole process to go thru 5 gates took abt 3hrs.

20/6 - after breakfast disembark and changed to a smaller boat to view the 小山峡..shd be valley ba. as the morn was quite cold, there was a layer of fog on top of the lake..wooo..beautiful! hahaha. went back for lunch, and funny..the waiter was abit paiseh, cos the chef said tt they dun have enough red bean paste to make the buns and he apologised to us..haa. at nite there was a game 'party', and for all games there was always at least one rep from each place..haa. me n bro played 2 of the games also. one was we had to place a balloon between our backs and den turn ard to make the balloon between our stomachs n den burst it. the other was solo where we had to throw rings ard a bottle.

21/6 - last day on cruise! disembark to view valley again in the morn, den slack in the aftnn. they always arrange programs, but some of the programs are quite bored la..so i rather go up to the deck..hahah. if not stay inside rm n slack n watch movies..they have movies marathons on board..haa. den at nite was free karaoke time. we juz sit and chat la.

22/6 - last day at china! haa. spent the day at chong qing..but the tour guide was not gd at all la. we had few hrs to shop in the aftnn, den dinner was their famous chong qing ma la huo guo. erm..i dun really like it la..haa. too numb for my liking..haa. the spicy part was still ok, but i dun like it when my tongue was numb..haa. at nite went to see their nite scenery which wasnt as great as wad the guide said. n we din even view it on a higher level or sth..it was juz by a road side, which we can see the yangtze river and buildings w nice lightings. reached the airport at 11pm to fly home!

2007-06-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

lalala, back from china~!! before i start to write long stories on the trip, shall first blog abt today! now the 4 of us are free, so can take turns to go down n tend the stall..work only 4 days a wk..yay! hahah. so i off todae n tml and sat cos sat will be celebrating ah ma birthday.

today went tam hse to slack..her hse lots of entertainment la. got pool table (9 feet some more!!), PS 2, mahjong, n ETC..LOL. gd place to slack..hahaha. den kok joined us for dinner after her interview. ate zhu chao, den talk talk talk..lol. reached home at abt 9+. dennnnnnnnn at 10+ almost 11, jackson asked me n kok out for supper. ahhh, shdnt have bathed so early la! lol. so had supper at the 24hr coffee shop at cck interchange. during the whole meal, kok was super high. she kept talking and laughing la! LOL. duno wad caused it..2 hrs ago, she was still quite normal..but somehow i tink playing audition makes her high..hahahha. ohh, den goonz me, i put my whole wallet w keys inside kok's bag n 4gt to take back..reach my lift le den realise..HAHAH. have to call her to come down again..HAHA. not like we stay v far from each other..lalala~. supper was jackson's treat though..hahaha. thks! really broke now..no time to teach tuition so no income..haaa

tml gg k box ladies nite!! woohoo!! lol

congrats to kok for finding a job too!! but really not prepared to start work so soon eh. y do i have to be prepared when its u starting work?! cos i still thot we all can go play more often when i work fewer days..now cannotttttttt! n to my horror.........ONLY 5 WKS OF HOLS LEFT!!!! AHHHHHhhhhhhh

china trip:

15/6 - flight to shen zhen was at 7 or 7+ am..reached the airport quite early. n was quite hungry, so bought BK breakfast..lol. quite pig, but i was really quite hungry, usually too early in the morn i wun have much appetite, but for tt day i was quite abnormal. reached shen zhen airport at abt 11am, den we had to wait for the 'tour guide'!! faints lo..where got tour guide late de..den we had to call the singapore tour agency, the china one oso..cmi. bad impression of her already..heng her job was only to take us to lunch and send us to take the domestic flight in the aftnn to chang sha (长沙) at hu nan (湖南). reach chang sha n saw the tour guide. first impression was: she seems v young..looks like shes not even 20. she was actually 21 la..still v young. went for dinner at some restaurant and den to hotel to rest for the nite le. all the lunch and dinner at china were 10 dishes and one soup..v kong bu..lol. n i rem for the 1st 2 days, we ate stir-fried cucumber w meat and brinjal for the lunches and dinners !! n beer were served for all lunch and dinners there too. but the alcohol content was not v high la..ard 2-4%. taste abit sweet oso.

16/6 - wake up call at 6am!! so early manz!! had breakfast at the hotel..n gosh, it was quite terrible. apart from the quality and quantity of the food which i shall not comment first..there werent even enough plates, cups, cutlery!! n most of the food were gone and not replenished. the tour guide later explained tt it was cause they had duno wad 14 korean tour grps or sth..but still..

left the place at 745am n travel on coach for abt 4 hrs to reach zhang jia jie (张家界). so now, zhang jia jie is still not v accessible as compared to most other places..but the scenery there is beautiful. well, when it becomes more accessible, the place will also be more commercialised..hah. the ppl there mainly depends on tourism to make a living and red light district. reached there and had lunch and den went to bao feng lake (宝峰湖). its a lake on a mountain..quite amazing. lots of hills and other mountains oso. had to walk up the mountain which was quite tiring..too long nv exercise..lol. the scene on the top was definitely worth the walk. there was also a half natural waterfall..it was a natural waterfall, but they man-made part was that they increased the volume of the water falling down..haha.

next stop went to a shop for foot massage and to 泡脚 in some herbal water. the water was so hot la..more den 40 deg! siaoz. waited quite long until the water cooled abit den put feet inside..lol. i din do the massage too, cos they said have to be 22 and above if not there will be side effects..i m not yet 22!! but the foot massage like nth one..see them do and hear my parents comments..lol. they seem to anyhow massage only. went back hotel to take a rest and den had dinner at the hotel's restaurant. this hotel is v good man..the rm is spacious and bed and pillows and shower were good..lol. after dinner, we went to watch a show performance which was about the different cultural customs of the 3 different grps of ppl at zhang jiajie as well as those impressive performance like walking on fire blah.

to be continued.....

2007-05-29T01:16:00.000+08:00

its the 4th day since my stall has opened! so tiring!! working 12 hrs a day, slping abt 5-6 hrs a day and spending 3-4 hrs on transport~! but i tink i have sort of gotten used to it le..one night rest is enough to relieve my legs from aches the next day, though by the late aftnn, my legs ll be tired again. but i ll be hot n sticky from 10+ am to until i reach home at abt 12+ mn. my poor sensitive skin cant take it as usual, and ll itch and have some rashes at nite..zzz

everyday has been quite routine..doing mostly the same stuffs. reached the place at abt 10am n start preparing (cleaning the place and stuffs cos its quite dusty there, cutting fruits, preparing other ingredients..), den 11+, 12 noon do the lunch crowd business. until abt 2pm, we start to rest abit, have lunch and den we start preparing ingredients again like freezing our 'special' ice..hahah, and cut fruits (mainly only mangoes..take such a long time to cut them!!! ZZzz) i muz master the art of cutting mangoes and be 神刀手!!! HAHA. at nite usually we pack up at abt 10 or 10+, if we have to take public transport, if we have car to take home, den ll do unitl slightly later..hahaa

the 5 star chicken rice staffs are all v nice ppl man..have been helping us quite alot, especially the captain, and sometimes we also feel bad abt asking them for help..hahaha. n they eat our ice quite often oso~~ cos its niceeeeeee..LOL! ok la, partly cos the weather is damn hot..hahah. business seems ok..but since our stall is new, hopefully we can expect more customers and regular customers to come..which all depends on word of mouth..hahahaha. we are still in the midst of doing up the place to make it more attractive cos the wall inside the stall doesnt really look v nice, n its bare and plain..so have to make it looks better. but given our limited time at home, its hard to be efficient..hahaa

i tink i m burning alot of calories daily..anyone interested in burning calories can volunteer to help at the stall..HAHAHA..i dun charge $$ !!

2007-05-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

finally got half a day for me to slack~! not much of a time for me to take a breather after exams man, and i tink i seriously need one v long break to get rid of the 'drained' feeling.

anyway, there are currently 3 major things which is keeping me v busy..FYP, prepare for the opening of the stall and cousin's wedding!! hahah. will be opening a stall 20th+ may to sell the ice desserts..n theres really quite alot of preparatory work though its juz a small stall.

Mon (7th) and thurs (10th) were spent at fren hse to discuss abt the stall stuffs. Mon was still quite ok and i met mag for dinner..hoho. fortunately due to my not-so-good throat, we din end up having LJS AGAIN. thurs was madness. spent 12 hrs at their hse, sooner or later it gonna be my 2nd home le, or rahter, maybe the future stall ll be my 2nd home..lolz. was so tired when i got home. oh den winnie asked me to help her edit her chinese essay..OMG!! now i truely understand how badly has my chinese deteriorated~~ HAHAHA.

Tue went back sch to meet with fyp supervisor..ahhhh..ok la, i tink i din get shot alot but becos i wasnt present during the 1st draft meeting, i wasnt really able to argue with some of the things she ask us to change. Wed stayed home and edited the project. well, ok..i admit i did slack some time on Wed oso..hahaha.

Fri was oso hectic..morn went to sch to pass my supervisor the draft 1 n 2 hardcopies (go to sch to juz slide the papers under her door..zzZz). den met winnie (cousin) to shop for dress. need to buy one cos we will be under my cousin's jie mei tuan during the BIG DAY! hahaha. went far east, heerens and bugis but couldnt find any suitable one..though we only spent like ard 4hrs shopping ba. den went down to pasir ris for the jie mei meeting cum bbq~ ok, wasnt tt shou with her frens, but liddat lor..hahaha. reached home at abt 2am (another cousin drove us cousins home).

sat morn arranged to meet with the boss of the shop that we were gg to rent a stall from, and me n my fren waited for him for like 2 hrs!! ahhhh..den we only talk for like ard half an hr cos he was busy..zzzzz. after tt rushed down to orchard to meet winnie again to continue our hunt for dress..lol. later meet another cousin, cindy jie to shop at marina square and finally manage to buy one at MNA..hee..niceeeeee..hahahha.

today woke up at 730 to teach tuitions...so slpy man. but was pissed off cos when i boarded the train, my student den tell me that she need to study other subject todae and cant have tuition..ZZzzz. but luckily, my 2nd student was able to start tuition earlier, so juz went straight to her hse, if not i ll be vv pissed. always cancel tuition last min and worse still, i had to wake up soooooo early laaaa..i need my beauty slp lo! aftnn went out to lunch with ah ma at crystal jade. n den its home sweet home~ took a NAP, not juz my normal bi mu yang shen..ahhaa..but the nap was quite short only la, auto woke up after 1 hr i tink.

i need MORE shopping.

2007-05-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

end of exams 2 days ago! at least i ll be freed from burying myself under the notes and books for 3 mths..haha. Still got fyp to settle, but soon it ll be over and done with (or i definitely hope so!) next wk gonna meet my supervisor ALONE..GOSH!! she better not be in a bad mood cos i cant take her attacks single-handedly.

ohhh..and the slping monster had come to bug me..zzz..hahah. i tink it ll be ard for at least a few more days..LOL. but the eating monster inside me is gone gone gone! as proven by dinner this 2 days..hahah. get full easily and ate lesser den before, but i cant rem when it started. no more buffets..sobz..lollllll

2007-04-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

HOORAYYYY~! well done for my 2 papers these 2 days man.

could only do half of the MB paper and nearly could not finish it. 7 qns in 2 hrs is near impossible. theres no time to think thru clearly and structure the ans properly..i juz wrote wadeva came to my mind. n theres so many application qns where we had to tink of examples on the spot. gosh. stupidity: i did extra research on one of the technical terms which they mention in the notes but din explain. it came out, but i din noe it was about tt. yay!!

nevertheless, made a even stupid mistake todae for the forecasting paper. had to choose 3 out of 4 qns for 2nd section. n i had to give up on the easiest qns because i din see the formula in the formula sheet. right. how smart. 30 marks gone juz like that, and ended up having no choice but to do the 2 difficult qns. was so angry and disappointed with myself that i had to escape to the toilet after the paper to calm myself down abit. Ahhhhh. freak.

wads next?

2007-04-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

夜的宁静适合静静思考
关于生活的选择题答案在哪里我怎么定义
努力的想挣脱但一次又一次的失败才发现早已麻痹
失去了方向迷失了自己迷茫像刺青烙印在我心里
累得蹲在角落吾住耳朵不想不听能否自由
为何依然陷在黑色漩涡里拯救不了自己
逃不开让脑袋留在凌乱的思绪里我学不会忍耐

当黑夜清晰过白昼孤独胜过拥有逆着光也无法感觉希望存在
我怀念的是无忧无虑的日子飞不回原来冰冷的躯壳就这样漂浮着
想让思考放空假洒脱是怕无法逃脱
答案在雨里我只看见淡灰色的风景
错在明知是错该如何得到解脱不再堕落
每个路口怎么转都错我进退不得谁救我

adapted from 燕姿's songs : 安宁关于漩涡需要你飘着逆光我怀念的

ahhhhh...nth much to be updated..cos its mainly juz sch n sch n sch. n soon it ll be the start of the 'long-awaited' battle..wooohoooo~~ how exciting!! yay!!!

2007-03-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

2007-03-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

本篇纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合。

© shi

迷茫，不解

仿佛像站在大海中被巨大浪潮袭击，不知所措
仿佛像走进了黑暗可怕的森林，不知如何逃脱
仿佛像被困在废墟中，不知如何挣脱
仿佛像自暴自弃似，堕落
仿佛像和妈妈走失了的孩子，惊慌失措
仿佛像做错事的孩子，不敢抬头面对
仿佛像站在十字路口，犹豫彷徨
只能无谓挣扎，独自面对，越陷越深，直到无法自拔
不想被束缚着，但又被现实捆绑着
面临即将到来的崩溃，又有谁能给我答案，寻找出口，让我有双翅膀，
仿佛像找到了属于自己辽阔的天空，无忧无虑的飞翔

“望” 想三部曲

希望

像被释放似，在悠悠翠绿的草原奔跑
暖暖的阳光照耀在身上，犹如一个温暖的怀抱
此时此刻，暂忘了伤痛
安心，舒服，自在，自由
希望很美好

失望

夕阳无限好，可惜近黄昏
听着小鸟回巢的声音
看着充满希望的太阳渐渐消失
感觉着力量被黑暗掠夺
恐惧排山倒海般攻击着
无助的任由眼泪滑落
只能等待着第一曙光的来临。

绝望

你说过做一辈子的好朋友
你说过一辈子一起分享喜与优
你说过一辈子陪我走
还没一辈子一切却已化为乌有
卷了，伤透了，哭累了，思念了
一切也没了。

时间能让伤口愈合，但疤痕却无法抹掉。

ok, 1st attempt at writing such stuffs. both kind of depressing hor..hmm..lol. but its easier to write sad stuffs. well, at least i attempted to write abt happy stuffs for the "希望".

m i so free to write?! no..lotsa work to do!!!!!!