time to take a breather from work!

watched P.S. I love you last wed with kok and tam at lot 1. A touching and sad show, but i thot it could have been better. some parts could have been more detailed and happened at a slower pace, or have more letters..hahaha. would have more tears falling den. n this is the show i liked the most among the 4 shows i watched recently. wanna read the book though..hee.

last thurs spent V-day bbq-ing with a group of uni frens, that was organised by Alice. Wooo~ quite a fun and crazy nite with many crazy people around..hahahah. it was also the first time i have ever "捞" yu sheng on a table! cos there are too many ppl, and the ingredients were too much. It was also the first time i tried drinking beer+orange juice+sprite..hahaha. i din noe beer can be mixed this way, the smell of the beer, which is the reason y i dun like beer, was covered, yet retaining the bitter after taste of the beer. after gg for this bbq, i also "koped" some better n much faster method of preparing food. For eg, no more wrapping mushrooms and sotongs..juz cook in a tray on top of the grill! wah, so smart! and its very time and labour efficient!! XD

sat had another bbq again for JC gathering, at the usual place near my house. A few ppl couldnt make it last min, but in total 15 (including me) turned up. Not that bad, at least half the class could make it..hahhaha. Was quite worried that the food we ordered and bought were not enough, because by 9+ pm, we had already finish bbq-ing most of the food. Its the first time that the food finish so fast, usually we bbq until midnight..hahaha. but nonetheless, there were still some food left, mostly the stingrays. the bbq wholesale is really quite expensive, mayb next time should juz ask my mum to marinate the wings and meat for us. It would have saved us quite abit of money. the stingrays were too spicy (again), and my family commented that the mashed potato were too creamy and cheesy, but not sure wad the others thought. the stingray was really spicy, because when i had it for 2 more consecutive meals, i could easily eat one fish w half of my rice, and sweat like mad..the chilli has already penetrated into the fish meat, which made it worse la! but my blender (the one my ys + others gave to me for the stall tt time) spoil!!! ahhhhhhhh!!! angry!!

after bbq, tam, ying, mag and kok stayed over at my hse for a chill-out session. nana came by later, chatted and watched sammi concert with us. after watching sammi concert, we watched jay's concert dvd. i prefer sammi's, so i m really not quite a jay's fan huh. watched CJ 7 online too, and the 七仔 was extremely cute!!!!! HAHAHA. love his expressions and reactions..really v cute and funny. cried when stephen chow died, even though i had expected that 七仔 will somehow save him, since he has got reviving power. after all the concerts and show marathon, it was lights out at 5+am. was very tired and sleepy by the time already, but i still couldnt fall asleep -.-". i was very physically tired already, and my eyelids were very heavy, but my mind still seems to be active, or perhaps 3 person squeezing a mattress on the floor is abit too uncomfy to slp. poor ying who keep coughing, and the warm water i gave her doesnt really help too.

ying woke up at 8 and left first cos she had to teach tuition at 10, and i admire her dedication..i cancelled my tuition in the aftnn, cos i was really too shagged. after ying left, i slpt on the bed and conked out totally until 10..hahaa. laze until 11+ b4 sending the rest off. had lunch, and made "summer snow" to eat, as my mum had freeze the last can of coconut juice and we had a mango whihc was bought quite long ago. great heat relief. went to nap from 4+ to 6+, and had dinner. attempted to do the HE411 assignment, but i stared at my word doc, and the word doc stared back at me..so it was a failed attempt..hahaa.

mon morn wanted to wake up at 9am (8hrs of slp), but i went back to slp after turning off my alarm and slpt until 10! gosh..hahaha. quickly woke up and studied for korean quiz in the aftnn. well, the quiz "buang" already..haaa. it was such a long quiz la, and the teacher muz have taken much effort and time to prepare the 10 pages (i tink so) quiz, which includes listening, vocab, grammar, 2 comprehension, and a short essay. the easiest part of the quiz has got to be the listening..if listening is considered the most do-able part..u all can imagine the rest of the paper..hahaha. anyway, sort of rushed thru the paper also la, cos after finishing the listening, we only start the rest of the paper at 530! how to finish in half an hr?! we were given extra time, but i still gotta rush to NIE lo. couldnt write the essay, cos i nv study vocabs and i only wrote one sentence for 9marks..lol. most prob gg to SU it anyway.

today did the HE411 assignment. tonight and tomorrow nite are supposed to be spent doing korean essay (500 words!!) which is due on thurs. but after gg for a short run juz now, my brain is malfunctioning again. next wk will be the one wk break liao! still gotta submit the biobiz assignment on wed, and do another HE411 assignment. Many many readings to do for the assignment..Zzz.

oh and ytd i was damn blur and careless la! took 172 home at nite and saw donovan on the same bus, so we chatted and i nv listen to my phone mp3. when alighting from the bus, my phone slipped out from my pocket and i din realise!! alighted from the bus and reach into my pocket for my phone to look at the time, and TO MY HORROR i realised that it dropped on the bus! rushed home and papa drove me to cck interchange. was VV lucky! a kind soul saw the phone and gave it to the bus driver who den returned to the interchange office. wahh, i am really very very grateful for the honest and kind passenger and driver as well. saved me alot of trouble, inconvenience, time and money. good karma?? lol. should continue to do more good deeds and earn more good karma.

grp pic of us 12 gals w half covered face..hahaha. the masks were sponsored by shi hui, who only mentioned it when we were abt to end the bbq..dots..lol. nevertheless, we still got time to take quite many funny pics of us wearing it.

ys and me~!

me and shi hui~!

half of S09 class pic

nana, ying, and me trying to take a pic, with tam, kok and mag trying to destroy it by being in the background..HAHA

CNY was BUSY BUSY and really like 狂欢. and the price of that is 2 days of tiredness and sian-ness.

CNY eve woke up at 7+ to go sch from 830 to 1130, den went to ah ma hse n bai bai. 捞鱼生 and ate shark fins too! wahh..nice nice. but we shouldnt be so cruel to the sharks hor..yaya, i have decided not to eat shark fins anymore!! perhaps home-cooked one can be an exception?? simply too good to resist. this yr we also became more skilful when lao yu sheng, no abalone on the floor and ceiling, but there were carrots and radish on my right arm until my shoulder.

den 6+ walked from ah ma hse to somewhere at keat hong there with my eldest aunt family to have dinner tgt. yup, to save the huge and tiring preparation work, we dun eat reunion dinner all 30+ of us tgt liao.

chu 1 was the usual routine, morn go papa side ah ma hse and have vegetarian breakfast first (vegetarian for half a day every yr). slack, stone, eat lunch, play cards until late aftnn den go a distant relative hse, where we continue playing cards (cos theres nth to do, n we were all really dozing off)..hahaha. after which, i went to mama side uncle and ah ma hse for dinner. the buffet dinner wasnt nice..heard that they changed the cater..ahhhh, really not nice. prev yrs one were not bad.

chu 2 wanted to slp more, but my papa n mama woke me up when they got back from mkt. after lunch, got ready to set off and do more visitings with my eldest aunt, youngest aunt and 4th uncle. visited 3 more distant relatives (papa's aunt and uncle) in total, and could have been 4, but the last one wasnt home when we went..hahaa. dinner was at kfc for us 9 kids (definition of kids here: not adults means kids..w age ranging from age 10 to 20+), while the adults had rice at the coffeeshop juz outside.

winnie (cousin) followed us back to my hse and "rest" a while, and at 9+ vincent (it feels so weird to omit the gor..lol) drove us to jp to watch late nite movie, ah long pte ltd. first time i watched a show with so many cousins..11 of us in total, though 3 of them were cousins' gfs. the show..hmm..not worth a $9.50 show la, becos there is like not much of a plot, but mark lee was quite funny. i rem there was this part where a sacarastic remark was made abt singapore sth (cant rem), which was supposed to be funny i guess, but no laughter can be heard..i wonder..

after the show, me n my bro and 2 other younger cousins went to winnie (and vincent) hse to stay over. watched final destination 2, which was erm..a lil gore, but ok, i hid one eye behind the pillow. i duno since when do i not like gore/bloody movies..thot i was ok w it last last last last time..haaaa. slpt at 5+ and woke up at almost 12, juz in time for my aunt's curry! yummy~

so spent chu 3 at my eldest aunt hse (gathering there) and in the evening went to mama's side youngest side hse for another gathering. papa left at 9+ to drive my bro to his fren's hse while me and mama stayed on, since the cousins who stayed opp the road from my place drove 2 cars, and can easily send us back. played blackjack until 10+? den the adults somehow learnt another new game and my cousin sent me, mama, and my ah ma back at 12+, while the rest still continued. me n my cousin were already v slpy liao, but they still not tired..0.0. tink i slpt at 3+..haaaa

chu 4..hmm, did my parents woke me up again?? hahah, i cant rem. but anyway, woke up feeling vv slpy and tired la. aftnn went over to my aunt place, and saw my cousin's frens from NTU, army etc. sat for a short while, and headed to a coffee shop at woodlands for dinner w papa side relatives. the food tt day wasnt quite up to the usual standard, which we ate b4 (actually i cant rem how the food tasted the past few times we ate), but the food tt day wasnt nice, and according to my cousins, it wasnt the case previously. most prob due to CNY crowd and shortage of chefs in the kitchen. we had to wait quite long for the food to be served oso..n the kua zhang thing is..when the 1st dish came, our rice din come, so instead of continuing to wait (since we have already waited vv long), we scoop the rice ourselves!!! best liao!! hahha

next day woke up mon liao!! CNY hol over!! time to work hard!! and i was vv slpy and lethargic on sun and mon. ZZzzzZZz. today was much better.

oh today went to watch kungfu slamdunk. better show den ah long? haaaaa. tts wad i thot, at least the cast was much better..haaaa. abit unrealistic (as can be expected) and lame at some parts, but overall was not bad. see the way they played basketball and slamdunk oso cool! i wun mind if ah sa got more scenes though..

tml watching p.s. i love u! wah, suddenly movie marathon?? haaa. but lot 1 cinema there having renovations and no more nachos to buyyyy!! so sad! ahhhhhh..yaya i noe i ate last fri when watching ah long, but still..the craving doesnt stop..ahahaha.

b4 we 捞

after we 捞

sumptuous lunch!!

2 cousins, whom we dun meet often..the boy is so cuteee!! and shuai! lol

the 4 who slack/rot/stone tgt at ah ma hse, ok leave the 2nd left guy out cos he seldom go ah ma hse liao..hor hor!!

3 models~

erm..another 3 models? LOL

新年快乐！happy new yr to all!!

get more angbaos! XDD

went back to PJ this morn to look for lao shi (Ms Chin). she still looked the same, but doesnt seems as tired as the last time mag n me bumped into her 1+ years ago. erm, chatted for abt 1 hr? told her abt the gathering we will be having on the 16th also, but so suay laaaaa, she's watching a concert w her frens on tt day, and so cant join us. n she asked us to take a updated pic on tt day n send her..haaa. she still rem me as short-haired..0.0". i guessed we din look for her when we went back to collect cert in 2004. and she say she thot mag was short-haired oso..lolz.

now feeling abit 百感交集, cannot put into words with my limited writing ability.


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the idea of a concert to me is enjoying the songs sang by the artiste on stage, immersing oneself in the atmosphere where thousands of similar others cheer and sing tgt, showing their support for him/her. how many ppl actually have tears welled up in the middle of a concert? how many concerts actually bring tears to one's eyes?

Sammi 2007's show mi concert juz caused me to do so. and i m not even watching it live (yea, i shd have..). there were 2 segments which were touching: one when she mentioned about her father, and talked a lil abt the period when she "disappeared" or took a break from the entertainment cicle, the other was when she read a letter that she wrote to herself.

some of the things she said really left a deep impression on me:

人生是一场自己与自己的竞技，与人无关，与人无尤，战胜一个懦弱的自己，更胜过击败其他的生命。

人在每个阶段都需要勇气面对自己，面对将来。

i had told myself since some time ago to listen to my heart and follow wad it says. stay true to urself, be urself and life would be happier. but, how easy is that? with all the different voices, both internally and externally, i juz cant seem to hear wad exactly it is saying. it is confused, and making me confused, making me unsure, making me feel lost.

back to the concert, during the encore, she actually appeared on stage with a slice of bbq pork (rou gan) in one hand and a humongous lollipop in the other, so we see the sammi w a huge tinge of craziness. and the songs were great (ok, i admit i skipped the dance medley part) but still, the other songs were vvv well sung! *thumbs up!*

the past week had been quite tiring (i duno y either), and i tink it ll be more so during this coming wk. oh, and a bbq on 16th (0.0). ahhh, hope i wun be bombarded with the same old many qns by relatives during CNY!!

time for bed!

十字路口

有多少人站在这里犹豫不决
有多少人站在这里裹足不前
有多少人站在这里彷徨无助
看着天上的白云缓缓飘过
看着多少人擦肩而过
时而艳阳高照
时而寒雨刺骨
多少次在矛盾里挣扎
多少次在边缘反复徘徊
天使与恶魔的斗争
理智与不安的拉扯
日复一日却不知如何取舍
太多的应该和不应该
太多的可以和不可以
究竟是真的不懂
还是欠缺违背理性的勇气

went to check my eyesight today. the optical 88 at lot 1 gave me a shock, after the guy use the machine n told me tt my left eye increase 150 deg..can fainttt! so went to another optician at my hse there, n he use the "manual" check..only 100 deg lo. ok, not only..100 is alot at this age..wad have i been doing to my eyes?

so i should come up with some measures to prevent further deterioration:

1. reduce use of laptop (impossible)
2. no reading of notes/journals/studying after 11pm when the eyes are tired (easily done)
3. no watching of tv for more than 2 hrs per day (also easily done, some days i dun watch tv at all)
4. no playing of solitaire showdown on msn w mag (take it tt i nv say this too, cos its impossible. the game is too addictive and exciting!)
5. paint my room green (dun tink it ll help cos its not scientifically proven that green is good for eyesight)

so conclusion, deterioration of eyesight cant be helped too much.

爱情定格 - 郭采洁

作词:易家扬
作曲:阿沁(f.i.r)

天空没颜色
时间隐形了
寂寞在心中翻跟斗
认识的你已经不同

明天怎么呢
我们怎么了
现在看照后镜的我
在泪光里动也不动

如果爱可以摄影
底片是多少厘米
每一格都是记忆
但对不起我在哪里

我和你
看着天亮说着未来打着雨伞穿着毛衣
听着钢琴笑着吃饭闹着分手哭着写信
过去 都在眼睛里瞬间暂停

我爱你
像个孩子一样任性像个大人一样伤心
世界上有多少的人跟我一样为了爱情
掉泪 然后走下去

是我爱记得可是该忘了坐在地铁中想着以后

juz realised this song is written by yi jia yang and composed by ah qin!!! wahh!! both i like!! guo cai jie is the gal who acted in yan zi's yu tian mv, and also ah qin's qi shi hai ai ni mv..din realised that its the same gal in the 2 MVs..hahhaah. but i only like 2 songs from her album..this ai qing ding ge and 诚实地想你. at some parts of the songs, her voice reminded me of guo mei mei..haa.

学会 - 王菀之

作词: 吴青峰
作曲: 王菀之

弹奏的黑白琴键
你猜不透你学不会
我的旋律你听见
弦外之音你误解

并肩的肢体语言
不够整齐不够绝对
沉默想讨你安慰
你却当作是责备

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
大部分的时间
选错了座位

湿透的落雨大街
脚步仓促水花纷飞
我的忧郁你发现
心底秘密却搁浅

独自的空荡房间
没有光线没有音乐
多希望你在面前
却满室寂寞云烟

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
大部分的时间
选错了座位

事与愿违
我流下雪白的眼泪
来自忽略你的纯粹
只忙著核对预设情节
和现实的你脱轨

释放世界
或许爱是学会看见
自己和你无可取代的美
不是给自己太多界线

我爱上的是谁
真正的你还是我支配
如果远走高飞
会不会思念

不是给自己太多
不是给自己太多界线

弹奏的黑白琴键你猜不透你学不会

i like this song! both the melody and lyrics. its written by the 苏打绿 lead singer, who also wrote 4 other songs in her album. N wang wan zhi is a 创作歌手, composed all the songs in her album!

sch so far..hmmm..

the econs module is chim..

had quiz on the 1st korean lesson..and i only got 39 (duno how much is the total, but most likely fail). luckily its not graded. the teacher said this time she will try to reduce on the quizzes and have more listening instead. 0.0 listening seems worse den quiz, cos they always talk so fast! had a hard time catching up during 2nd lesson too, cos there were alot of new vocabs which werent introduced formally during level 1, n my oral still cmi..hahahha. N it doesnt help tt i cant see the whiteboard clearly..time to change specs!! SOON!! ahhhhhhhh, is there a possibility tt my deg has become lower rather den higher (yeah..a v low possibility.. /sobz)

shakuhachi. haven get to touch the instrument yet, but i also tink its not gg to be easy to get a sound out..lol

biology in biz. quite slack..lol. missed the 1st intro lect, but it only lasted for half an hr anyway. 2nd lect lasted only 45 mins. so i waited 3 hrs for a 45 mins lect../fant. haaha. gave an intro on some biology stuffs.

went running on wed..did some push ups and sit ups too. right..tummy and arm muscles ache until todae..lollllll. lousy laaa! but sometimes really quite shiok to feel the pain. hopefully lecture can end early every wed so tt it can be my "running day"..hahaha

oh..bought the tix to angela concert too liao../oops. now i m next to penniless! yay!!

went sentosa again ytd!! this time went cafe del mar, and the weather was vv good (too good at times..haha). but it did rained a little as we were waiting for the bus to go back to vivo, and there was smoke from the road..so could tell how 'good' the weather was huh. the toilets there were spacious and clean too..a major difference from the public ones..haha. well, for the pricey food and drinks they sell there, i guess its reasonable that they provide at least a clean toilet, in addition to the chairs for suntanning..hahah. n next time i muz rem to wear a cap to protect my face ^p. n yesh, the next time is tentatively fixed on 2nd feb (again?!). tink i shd go get the islander card or sth huh..haaaa.

den went far east to shop and see quite a number of frens. saw jackson, ah zhen, michael, charles as a grp shopping, den saw ah mei too!! wahhh..hhahaa. n met peggan oso! while walking from far east to cuppage, me n kok saw jie he. singapore is small, with only those few shopping areas..hahahah. had dinner at waraku, and for the 1st time we tried sake. the meaning of sweet sake and sweet cocktail are quite a big contrast..lol. it tastes erm..juz alcohol, a little sweet when the sake juz touch ur tongue, but the after taste was v bitter. 2 of us ordered 3 dishes (2 main + 1 side) though we werent vv hungry kind..oops. the side was a cream base soup with oysters, veg, mushrooms..wahh..nice!! addicted to waraku's cream base noodles/soup..wahahhaha

last thurs went to MS xin wang cafe for dinner with uni clique (excluding ys) too, as a belated bdae dinner/celeb for christina? ha. it will soon become my one of the most frequently-visited spot..haaaaaaa.

oh, and Angela is finally coming to singapore for concert on the 29th march!!! I WANNA GO!! its at expo!! but kallang oso quite ulu..perhaps the travelling time to both places are quite the same..hahahha. n theres so many cat 1 seats! faints.

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the sake!! ok, it looks much nicer in when u see it with ur eyes den on pic

Ice milo taste so much better den UHT choc milk. the latter juz reminds me of the sec sch days morns when..er, i was on the underweight programme..Zzz. I wan meiji plain fresh milk!! ahhhhh, still got one and a half more pkt of UHT milk to finish !! shd ask my bro to drink finish all !!! lol.

anyway, a few mths ago i did the MBTI personality test and the result was ISFJ. was bored ytd and did it again..lol. and got the same results. tried the chinese version too, which was translated from the eng one..some of the qns sound weird..haaa. the chinese one gave a ISFP though, but i tink i am lingering between J and P. Info on ISFJ personality can be found: http://www.personalitypage.com/ISFJ.html

searched on the net for the word introvert, and found some interesting facts. For one, being introverted is different from being shy, the latter being nervous and anxious ard ppl (i will only feel so if i m faced w many many ppl), while the former need time alone to recharge energy, esp after spending long hours with ppl or socialising (quite true for me). I tink it depends on with whom the time was spent with too. Introverts are minority in the US population (mayb not for Asian countries). They are also often oppressed (more for the Western society) and misunderstood.

Being introvert is also neither a choice, nor a lifestyle, its an orientation, that is just different from the norm. There's no right or wrong, and shouldnt be ostracized or look upon as abnormal.

For more info on introvert:
http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_introvert
http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch

For the differences betw extrovert and introvert:
http://talentdevelop.com/articles/GiftIntrov.html

Top 10 Ways to Protect Yourself from Wrong Accusations as a Result of Being an Introvert:
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/how-to-be-a-happy-introvert.html

oh, and one of the quote which i like - introverts are a minority in the regular population but a majority in the gifted population (y i m not gifted? 0.0?).

sch has started but as all can see, i m still quite slack..hahhaa. my first lesson starts on thurs..lalala~

oh ya, after being reminded that i 4gt to write abt gg ktv on last sun, i realised tt i also 4gt to type down sth which ought to be remembered..haha. on xmas eve at sentosa with ys n sh, we wore xmas hat for half the day! n we 3 crazy gals got erm..quite abit of attention, though i wun tink its v weird to wear it on xmas eve..lalala~ =P

this wk had been more hectic den the wk before (hectic here means playing more)..hahhaa

watched AVP2 on wed nite w ys, and 2 other frens whom i got to noe thru the invigilator job at expo in early dec. wasnt really my kind of show, but the seats at cathay cineplex was really comfy! can fall asleep!! hahahaha. (so if u r sleepy and catching a movie, dun go there). Anyway, one of them was a magician and i was v much fascinated by the tricks he do!! HAHAH!! so cooool and amazing la!! but learn oso need $$$ k..wait till my enthusiasm for it grow out of control first before i pay to learn..hahahahha. its gd to have another 一技之长, so that at least i can still earn some money for rice, if i go jobless..XD

thurs went shopping w mag, tam n nana! din manage to shop finish far east though..had dim sum dinner at marina square, before heading to DXO to attend a bash organised by NYC for some youth volunteer thingy. kinda loud and messy (not in the rowdy sense) for me, but it got better when we went upstairs..haaaaa.

fri went shopping w tam n nana again!! this time we conquered bugis!!! wanted to continue where we left off at far east the day before, but not enuff time, and i was quite dead beat by dinner time..hahahah.

sat woke up early in the morn (8+) to go funan w my bro to collect the free desktop (upon upgrading of the starhub maxonline plan). waited for abt 2 hrs...Zzz.

sch's starting tml!!! goshhhhhh. did i even had a 6-wk hols? it flew by way too fasttttt!!

oh rite..n i haven meet up w kw! (big hint for KW to see) HAHA

hope when sch starts, my slping disorder will disappear too!! ahhhhhhhhhh


又是一个失眠的夜
这次我该翻着书页
还是听着抒情音乐
带我进入黑色世界
这并不是我的自虐
而是周公存心恶劣
纵使我已那么疲倦
却依然残忍的施虐
无奈滋味谁又了解

别人的所谓

手里握着咖啡杯
喝着冷却的苦涩滋味
该拒绝还是委屈自己的胃
多么狼狈但已无所谓

手中那纯白堡垒
坚强能掩饰的多完美
让人无法透视隐藏着的黑
多么可悲孤单在加倍

他们说的所谓
我选择沉默不理会
若急着一味追随
会否成为时间的傀儡
错过多少沿途中风景的美

他们说的所谓
不代表着我的心扉
我会给自己勇气
做好迎接挑战的准备
不却步的寻找自己的方向

the first 2 and last 2 para like doesnt go well tgt..wadeva la, juz take it as a 乱乱来thingy..hahahha ^P

Here comes 2008! Happy new year to all! May it be a smooth sailing and good year for all frens and wish that all resolutions (if any) will be fulfiled! =D

Visited Sentosa's Underwater world and dolphin lagoon for the 1st time last wk (dun luff, its not funny). Fascinated by all the different kind of fishes, and sharks, dugong, sea dragon, hermit, jelly fish, few kinds of stingray tt will splash water on u when u touch them. n the dolphins were vv cute!! n smart too..performing all the tricks..hahaa. Fun day w ys n sh! XD

celebrated ying's bdae on sun. went sentosa again for tanning..but erm..not much tan la, cos it rained. the 4 of us (mag, kok, ying and me) pushed the blame to poor nana..lol. e 4 of us went sun tanning first, at abt 2+. The weather was still bright n sunny, so hot tt i cant help but get into the water, though i initially din wanted to =P. Nana joined us at abt 4+, n after reaching the beach station, she went to change into beach wear. N the funny thing (funny thing is a nicer way of putting bad luck) happen..the moment she changed finish n was abt to step out of the toilet..it poured!! BIG rain!! so we quickly packed n went to hide under the shelter. after sometime, the rain subside a little, and nana came over n looked for us. While waiting for the rain to stop, we decided to wash mag's mat using the rain water..n the rain stopped..yay! so happily, the 5 of us went out and want to continue our tanning again. When Nana had finished applying the sun block lotion, it began to pour again -.-" ( see..Nana was not fated to tan on tt day, n we shouldnt have asked her to join us..lolx - hoped i wun be killed by nana). right..so we went to hide again (playing hide and seek w the rain). the rain den stopped again, and no more grey skies, but to be safe, we asked nana to go to the beach first, n see if it really wun rain again (i m not as mean as the others k..at least i accompanied her hahahaha). bleh. anyway, after tt only tanned for awhile more b4 we had to bath and go vivo for dinner at Bosses. Food was not bad, loved the spinach and wasabi mayonnaise prawns..the other 2 dishes 3 cups chicken (wah, sounds so weird) and black pepper chicken strips were not bad also..okok, everything is nice! but the food was quite ex..haaa

sat played mahjong at PY hse..kept luffing la! crazy ppl playing mahjong = 1 nite of stomache from too much luffing =P

ok, from now on, like wad mag said, our age is a secret! well, a woman's age and weight are always a secret..haaaa.

ytd went out to celeb my bdae! but the greatest part of the day got to be the beginning and hte ending..hahaha. Got a big surprise in the morn, as my hse got raided by mag n kok!! at 11+ mag appeared b4 my door, using her finger to cover the peek-hole (wad do u call tt thing??), and i was v skeptical abt opening the door, cos mama says, cannot open door to strangers, somemore this stranger purposely dun wan to be seen which is even dangerouss!! den, i heard a voice saying: she dun wan to open the door leh.. hahhaha. tt gave her away la, was quite surprised already..n when i open the door, i only see her alone, so i thot she was talking on the phone w kok, n kok told me many many times tt she gotta work ytd and can only join for dinner. So, after i let mag enter, i juz locked the door, and den kok appeared~ faints..hahhahaha.

they bought pasta mania for lunch, when the day b4 mag still say go settler's cafe for lunch..haaa. ok, according to mag, they initally wanted to buy stuffs and cook here (attempting to burn my kitchen in the process i guess), but time was too tight..hahahaha. yea, so had lunch at my hse, and kok gave us the souvenirs she bought in HK. Mag, the chief organiser, den said settlers was cancelled becos the rest cant make it, and so we are heading to kbox instead..lol.

it doesnt matter how many ppl pei me, its the ppl that is the most impt! so still had fun at kbox w the 2 butaz, and sang some quite jing dian songs, songs u may nv hear in a million yrs, but u ll still noe how to sing automatically..hahahhaa. N made us feel old..LoL. oh ya, n one of the person whom took drinks orders from us asked if we were 18 when we wanted to order alcoholic drinks..faints la. 18 abit kua zhang leh..haaaaaa

dinner was at waraku w the rest of the jc clique, and had a dark choc cake from rive gauche. the cake had a layer of biscuit at the bottom, which was v crispy and niceee..yummy yummy!

last activity was the chilling out at acid bar! there was an acoustic singer tt nite, so the atmosphere was not bad, n we played some guessing games..hahaha. this time round, we ordered baileys irish cream for the 1 for 1 promo..i prefer the one i drank quite some time ago at my cousin hse..haaaa. this one was too creamy.

had a fun time! and THKS mag n kok! really happy n quite touched k, though it doesnt show on my face. wad to do, i cant control my facial expressions leh..hahahah.

last fri (14/12) had dinner celeb w uni frens too! went spageddies at marina square..food was v nice too!! (OMG, i have been eating n eating, w/o much detoxification). but i 4gt to take pics..hahahha. though julia din join us, me n ys still bumped into her at xin wang cafe when we had our desserts there..haaaaaa. desserts were nice too!! mangoes mangoes mangoes!! hahahaha

sat (15/12) went out for dinner w my family, and on the way back, my dad drove us to buy the v famous rochor beancurd. So qiao again, i bumped into jl when me n bro were leaving the place..haaaaaaa. beancurd was vvvvv smooth n silky..oh man, i m missing it again! hahahaah

I love all the presents too..Thks to all! =D

生活中的插曲
可以是动人旋律或感伤音律
回荡在空气中牵动着情绪

生命中的路人
有的住在心中有的只是过客
擦肩而过往反方向各走各

四季的变换
经过了春夏秋冬和花开花落
许多事变化无常无法掌握

坚信是否就能继续执著

ahhhhhhhhhh..stupid running nose wun recover! its making me tear and feeling slpy~

after attending the resume writing and professional imaging course for 3 days over the week, i tink gg for an acting class seems to be more appropriate. @ interviews, u have to present urself in a way to fit their crieria, and do it all almost perfectly - little signs of nervousness, appropriate body languages, gestures, sitting posture, language, with an ever present power smile which shd best look natural, n not plastered on. @ networking sessions, u be friendly, sociable, and say things which will let the other party leave a good impression of u.

or perhaps its juz that i dont have the qualities required, which is y i find that its actually an acting session, being someone not really me.

i juz love being in my own little world

世界的虚伪，社会的现实，要求我们必须妥协
妥协于梦想与实际, 妥协于迎合敷衍
微笑带着面具演着另一个陌生的自己
演到最后，是否会连真正的自己也看不清

went cafe iguana last fri to celeb nana bdae..well, it was my 1st time there. hmm, abit on the noiser side, but i guess usually open spaced place is noiser, n the whole place was v packed! food was ok but i cant rem the names of the food we ordered, except fajita..hahahaa. the rest are all out of my memory. there was 50% discount for drinks ordered b4 9pm and after 12 pm, so we ordered a jug of black berry margarita and one vv big glass of mango margarita to share. i prefer the mango one..hahha, but the price was quite ex..w/o the 50% discount, the jug of margarita (poured into 7 servings for each of us) would cost abt $110. faintsss. hahahha.

right..now shd i confess abt the chou shi me n kok encountered (note: not me only). err..i will juz make it short n sweet..its not every now and den u get chou shi rite, so its worth to be remembered..LOL. me n kok were supposed to go buy the cake and den reach the place at 7, while the rest joined us after they ktv session. the 2 v clever ppl, were not sure of the correct exit to go out at the mrt station and ta dah~~! we saw them outside the mrt station! yesh, the grp of ppl whom we were only supposed to see at the cafe, not at the mrt station..lol. but luckily tam and mag reacted quite quickly and diverted nana attention to the display inside the shop beside them..hahhaha.

my reaction was quite funny la, cos i suddenly duno wad to do. tried to hide the cake behind kok, while i ask her so now wad? den we went to hide. so fun..hahhaha. n my phone rang! cafe person called to say they ll only reserve the seats for only 5 more mins. right..den we juz ran..lolllll. ran away from them and to the cafe..LOL. quite lang bei.. duno y i always have to 'run' when i m with kok, either chase the bus, mrt, traffic light, or now run away from them..hahhaha.

ok..pics are more interesting, and say much more:

fried calamari w a duno-wad sauce at the bottom..quite standard

the mango margarita! such a big glass~! have a bitter after taste, which i described as abit similar to like theres mango skin being blended..haha. but i still like the bitter sweet taste

birthday girl ! smile~. ok, y is the candle not lit? its not becos theres no lighter (we went to specially buy a lighter cos no one rem to bring from home AGAIN). its becos the wind from the fan on top was tooooo biggggggg!! even if the fire from the lighter is not blown off, the fire can only remain on the candle for 1 sec.

ok, i 4gt the name of this dish, but inside is prawn.
i oso cant rem the name of this..its fish, but its so hard, it tasted like chicken. den theres rice n black beans at the side.
erm..this is erm..inside is lots lots of rice w chicken..isint really to my liking

cheers~!! black berry margarita..not bad too. abit of sour + bitter.


finally..i NOE the name of this dish! fajitas! we chose the mushroom one, and it came as above, which we had to wrap it w the sauce n become as below:

my fav dish!

its good to try different things once in a while~

after tt took a short stroll along the river, and sat down to chat. great meeting up w all of them again! n we ll be doing so again in 2 wks!! yay!! hahahhaha

Exams are over! yes..this also implies that the 2nd last sem of my university life is over.

时间真的过得很快，它不会为谁放慢脚步，更不会为谁稍作停留，当你还在原地裹足不前时，世界早已把你抛在后头.

went to the bank today, only to realise that i can only close the acct tml, which is the 6 mth minimum period, if not a $30 charge will be imposed. *faints*

世界很大 我却渺小
风很洒脱 我却懦弱
天空蔚蓝 我心却灰
海很平静 我却凌乱
落叶重生 我却迷茫

歌很悲伤 触动心弦
夜很漆黑 伴随失眠
雨很凄冷 刺得心寒
雾在弥漫 模糊视线

世界很大 但也悲哀
风很洒脱 但也寂寞
天空蔚蓝 但也会哭泣
海很平静 但也有风浪
落叶重生 但也会凋零

歌很悲伤 但是种安慰
夜很漆黑 但总有曙光
雨很凄冷 但能期待彩虹
雾在弥漫 但会云开雾散

梦也许美 却握不到
海鸥自由翱翔 我却原地盘旋

给未来的自己 - 梁静茹
作词:黄 婷 作曲:李正宗

站在狂风的天台一望无际
这一座孤独的城市
在天空与高楼交接的尽头
谁追寻空旷的自由

阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我
隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠
川流不息的人游荡在街头
谁能听见谁的寂寞

找一个人 惺惺相惜
找一颗心 心心相印
在这个宇宙 我是独一无二 没人能取代
不管怎样 怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海
多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待

我不放弃 爱的勇气
我不怀疑 会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦 给未来的自己
一天一天 一天推翻一天 坚持的信仰
我会记住自己今天的模样

有一个人 惺惺相惜
有一颗心 心心相印
抛开过去 我想认真去追寻 未来的自己
不管怎样 怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

我不放弃 爱的勇气
我不怀疑 会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦 给未来的自己
不管怎样 怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
未来的你会懂我的疯狂

Nobody's home by Avril Lavigne

I couldn´t tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn´t help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What´s wrong, what´s wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don´t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside,
find a reasons why.
You´ve been rejected,
and now you can´t find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don´t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can´t find.
She´s losing her mind.She´s fallen behind.
She can´t find her place.
She´s losing her faith.
She´s fallen from grace.
She´s all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody´s home.
It´s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She´s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She´s lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

考试

考试要来咯 学生好痛苦
不要再犹豫 赶快去拿书

昼夜读读读 嘴都翘嘟嘟
翻着厚厚书 全是外星语

嘴巴没得动 手却快僵痛
眼皮真沉重 头脑要爆破

大声喊一喊 头发抓一抓
墙壁撞一撞 发泄一下下

回到书桌前 继续再备战
努力熬一熬 战期很快过

考试完之后 讲义全烧掉
管他A或C 逍遥快活最重要！


exams in less than 3 wks! ahhhhhhhhhhh~

歌曲名称: 夜的方向
歌手姓名: 张峰奇

剩下一个人的时候
有一点寂寞
找些话题对自己说
想起那天你离开我拒绝挽留
你却回眸看我一眼都没有

一句安慰 你都舍不得给
是什么理由不值得你为我难过
整个冬天 一个人过一年
曾经的回忆是我放不下的狼狈

夜的方向我搞不懂
星星的指引我迷惑
在星空下迷了路
仅存一丝绝望跟着我
夜的方向看到什么
一个人无厘头在漫游
彼此还是选择沉默
了解孤单的懂的享受

我抬头往上瞧
月亮星儿在嘲笑
讽刺我 找不到 寻不着
夜的方向我看不清依靠
我的思念在远方
谁能代替我收藏
一直逃避 不断压抑 不想开启
埋藏爱的日记

夜的方向看到什么
一个人无厘头在漫游
彼此还是选择沉默

wah, v nice. i like the lyrics too!


today went to the jobs central career fair at suntec with ys and chris. but nth much la, finish walking ard in mayb ard 1.5hrs only..hah. So, i m still in the midst of searching for wad i wan. no actually, i noe wad i wan, but its impractical n i ll die of hunger..LOL. so muz look for 2nd best alternative..hahahah.

anyway, on the way back from suntec to mrt i saw kok..wah, v scary cos we were sms-ing awhile ago, n suddenly see her..lol. but u shd noe i m in suntec area la, since i mention donuts, juz that u duno i was gg home while u were juz gg to meet ur fren only..LOL

看透 by 石欣卉

忘了多久没有一个人走走
忘了多久没有静下心回首
尝遍岁月的冷暖无休
有什么是不可看透

谁预料下一个路口
是欢喜还是新愁
谁计较成功或失败
是否相伴到白头

梦像一杯斟满的酒
已揭示得失错漏
添加每处欢喜悲忧
都会溢出曾经的拥有

多少次放弃拥有在同一双手
多少次妥协争斗梦里心伤透
走过铅华尽洗的深秋
得到失去竟同时碰头

sun woke up at 645am to go ah ma hse to bai bai for ah gong's death anniversary. It has already been 2 years, time juz flies so fast. due to the customs, we din eat any tang yuan during the past 2 yrs, and hence there was a HUGE demand for ah ma's tang yuan. oh man, it juz taste so delicious - soft on the outside, and very Q on the whole, simple yet authentic. One of the wonder of home-made recipes~. I had 2 bowls of it! hahahaha. well, most of us had 2 bowls so I m not being greedy..hahahha.

tang yuan~! yum yum!!

celebrated kok's bdae on the 29th ! had dinner at ichiban boshi @ suntec, and dearest mag bought cake at bakerinz first b4 queueing for dinner cos we couldnt get a reservation. seems as though i nv contribute anything, but actually, i was doing the most impt task kkkk..i was the bodyguard for the birthday gal and kept her company the whole afternoon!! hahahahahaha

8 of us ordered a whole table FULL of food, such that the waitress had a lil trouble putting all the food on the table..hahahha. but i liked the beef soup, baked mushrooms with butter, soba and sashmi best!! oops, i tink i listed most of the food already..lolz

cake was banana walnut, initially i thot the flavour was abit weird, but it tastes gd..hahahah. goes to show that bakerinz cakes are really good..lol. since the bdae gal cant possibly be the cut-cake aunty of the day, I have to take over her!! wasnt skilled at cutting the cake though..hhahaha. And we finished the cake!! oh ya, dear mag 4gt to buy lighter/matches to light the candles. somehow its always neglected, cos me and kok 4gt to buy too for mag birthdae too. but its actually the most impt item! hahaha. luckily we managed to borrow from the restaurant =D

left ichiban at ard 10pm, ah mei headed home first, and the rest of us decided to go xin wang cafe at marina sq to slack and chat. And erm, we ordered drinks, porridge and toast (food again!!) during our 3+ hrs there..haahha.

table full of food !!!

say cheese~

wad's ah mei doing?? hahaha

kok is rich with a stack of $$$ !!hahahha

3 of us! cheese~

at xin wang, we sat at table 22 (such a coincidence!)

me and yingz having twin backs! LOL

ytd went suntec fish and co to have dinner with ys and shi hui, and bought donuts from donuts factory! bought 6, and todae had 3 already..HA. gonna have sore throat soon from all the choc! yay!

how i wish i can run away from everything!!

关上门没有人找得到我，跑到非洲跑到月球躲一躲！

yay!!

fell down in sch today!! oh man, i tink shd be quite embarrassing, but den i erm, sort of used to it liao, though i tink i haven fell in public for quite long..LOL. Fell while walking up stairs at the bridge leading to outside LT1A there, and i tink there is a group of ppl behind me becos i saw 2 179 at the busstop. but i stood up almost immediately after the fall, and juz walked to a nearby chair before checking my knee..hhahaha. and my new handphone got a scratch!! ZZzz. Nv bleed but theres scratches and vv big bruise on my right knee..PAIN !!!

went to IMM cafe cartel for a late lunch today..i had a beef stew w rice, and the rice was v little! so i ordered another rice from the waitress who seems to give a "troubled" look. i dun believe no other customers ever ordered extra rice! HA. anyway, the rice cost $1.50!! even after 30% student discount, its still $1..v expensive!

quite broke recently..wonder where is all my money spent on?!

its aug already! cant believe sch will be starting next wk!! gosh~ will have to be tortured by GYS soon again!!

after much consideration and analysis, we have decided to close the stall next fri, which means last day will be on 9 aug (wad a significant day..lol). haiz..quite sad abt it, but 长痛不如短痛, its really best to stop operation given the numerous obstacles and situation. during this 11 wks i have really quite alot of things, and noe doing biz is really not easy at all, more difficult den wad we really expected. n it really takes up alot of energy, so do biz cant be a part-time thingy at least until a system is set in place.

now that we have decided to stop, we had to inform the regular customers abt it, which was v difficult..haha.. duno how to tell them abt it. ytd nite a gal who always buy summer snow came down to buy desserts again, n when i told her we ll be closing next wk, the response she gave: huh, y? ahhhh, made me n kx felt so sad. some might tink we were juz 'playing', but of cos we arenot. i wouldn't have spent so much time n effort if i was juz playing..can do so much other things during the hols. but some customers also tink we shd focus on our studies first, n tink abt doing biz after we graduate..haa.

lalala~ last thurs went to celeb tam and mag's bdae! went to california pizza kitchen (correct?) at forum shopping mall, which to me was quite a ulu place..walked quite long w kok to reach the place cos we went to paragon to get the cake first, n went 7-11 to buy a lighter for the cake..hahah. the pizza there was not bad..we ordered one w avocado one, which doesnt looks nice..but it taste great! even better den the other pizza we ordered. i tink the other pizza tt we ordered was burnt, tts y not v nice.

the 2nd pizza..called club pizza or sth

the pizza with avocado

pizza auntie of the night~

the 2 desserts we ordered which looks similar and also taste quite similar..hahah. but both are delicious!

just now u see it, now u dun! gone in 6 mins!! gosh~!

kok & nana w mag~

yingz & me w tam~

wahh..fierce mag!! *scared* HAHA

tink kok said sth wrong which made mag FURIOUS!!

but dear nana is not affected at all..hahaha

2 女主角 of the day

grp pic

cant rem wads so funny that made them luff so hard..hahaha


many many hands attacking the cake

credits to the cake auntie also~

today went for dinner with mag and kok at lot 1, initially our after-dinner-activity was pool..but we ended up gg to the arcade..hahaha. ages since i last played. played a shooting one with mag, and also the basketball! wah..after shooting the basketballs, my right arm hurts..lol. but its quite addictive. gg to the arcade is more expensive den playing pool!! hahaha

working at the stall n running a business is tiring!!! but i muz persevere!!! haaa


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAG!!!!!!!!! =D

爱情万岁

歌手：郑秀文

爱情存在舆论性承受
这批斗与你笑着革命
市内全民皆兵听着流言之声
我若能拥抱你已是险胜
受尽炮轰任由恋爱没有世界共鸣
维持着爱护与尊敬
未怕没有亲友赠兴
宁愿牺牲也与你以爱捐躯
从历史中见证这轰烈一对
爱到倒下去浮沉是非中一对伴侣
谣言里人潮里寻求我幸福至少无罪
那怕走得再崎岖
言论之中去见证爱情万岁
未似对正常情侣你我纵是残余弱旅顽抗爱下去
爱情长路如绝岭
无论伤口再中箭也未怨命
世上如何孤清对望仍然温馨
都不可封杀恋之风景
彼此不必世界的嘉许
只想讲生命至少也许
每人亦有最珍惜伴侣
旁观的怎么拼命插嘴泼下冷水
宁愿牺牲也与你以爱捐躯
流下这可歌可泣动人眼泪
渗进沙漠里悬崖上开花一对伴侣
曾难过曾憔悴
寻求我幸福更加无惧
爱侣不需要心虚
承受子弹去爱你也是壮举
若有了我们儿女
与你故事遗传下去能爱到万岁

错了再错
歌手：张栋梁
作词:陈佳明作曲:李偲菘

退到了绝境再退 破碎到不能破碎 能挽回什么 你就不肯说 我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲 绝望是你赐给的安慰 为何你说谎 我却受惩罚 你不如就用刀刺下
**我可以痛了再痛 你可以错了再错 不甘心不闪躲 只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活 你存心用尽我宽容 为什么连谎言 你也刺破爱
或痛彼此纠结 悲和我无法分解 厌倦的疲累 成了一片黑 伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水 背叛是你另一种慰藉 完美的借口 泪无辜留下 你不如用乱箭射吧
*即使我头也不回 这悲剧猛向我追 情愿你全部摧毁 别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没 给我的爱像一根绳索 你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪 躲全为了失真的承诺 为什么连谎言你也给刺破 为什么连谎言你也不说

17/6 - went to 龙王洞 to see a natural cave, which was abt 1+ hr walk. looks like those wu xia shows cave scenes..lol. the temp inside the cave is v weird..during summer it ll be cold like ard 18 deg, but during winter, it ll be warm. so plus the rain, it was quite cold inside. went to other tourist attractions with more mountains, and yuan jia jie also. but as it rained almost the whole day, we could only mainly see clouds on top of the mountain..lol. we waited for some time there, hoping tt there would be v strong wind to blow the clouds and mist away..n it really did! so we got to view the scenery for 2-3 secs..LOL! there was a place called 十里画廊(ten mile gallery)..at first i really thot we were gg an arts gallery, turns out tt we ll be taking a tram and see the scenery along the way..hahaa.


18/6 - last day at zhang jia jie! had breakfast and set off at 8+am. first went to a 土家妹 shop selling their local specialties. Next went to Dr. Tea to try their different types of local tea. Also went to an art gallery (real one now), which displays drawings by a local famous artist. he used stones found on the hills of zhang jia jie and grind them into sand and den used the different colours of the sand to draw. the drawings all looks v real! amazing!!


went for lunch which was mushrooms pot..yummy~ especially with their noodles..muahha. den was the long long journey to 宜昌 for us to take ship to cruise the yangtze river. the rain delayed the bus journey, and by the time we reached the harbour to take ship it was already ard 9pm. on the bus, the tour guide taught us to sing 山歌, their folk songs, and she chose ppl to go to the front of the bus to sing la! me n bro both got 'chosen'. our tour grp was actually quite small..15 ppl only, with 4 children (including meeee..lol). the other 2 children were 11 and 15 yrs old..n the rest were parents and 2 grandparents. so actually all of us got along quite well la.

19/6 - woke up at 6+ again, for breakfast at 730am. for the 3 days on ship, the breakfast serve almost the same food..zzz. but the soup noodles was v tasty..n i got sick of eating eggs..lol. there was only 70+ ppl on board, and we had fixed seats inside the restaurant. we split into 2 tables, and had one waiter assigned to serve juz our 2 tables. the rest of the passengers were from shen zhen, and HK. the service was vv good..asked for our comments after each meals. for lunch, we had 豆沙包 as one of the dish, which was vv delicious! so we told the waiter, and he said he could change one of the dish, which doesnt taste as nice, to dou sha bao tml lunch..wahh! lol. again, we had lots of dishes for lunch and dinner on the ship also. even more than prev days, because they have many more appetizers b4 the main course..haa. oh, after breakfast, we disembark and went on shore to view the dam. bro din join us cos he was sick!

after lunch, went to the deck to see how the ship sail past the 闸门. the ships have to go thru 5 of these because the difference in water levels on the upstream and downstream were too great. so the ships have to go inside and den close the gates for the water level to be raised, and go thru to the other zha men n so on. the whole process to go thru 5 gates took abt 3hrs.

20/6 - after breakfast disembark and changed to a smaller boat to view the 小山峡..shd be valley ba. as the morn was quite cold, there was a layer of fog on top of the lake..wooo..beautiful! hahaha. went back for lunch, and funny..the waiter was abit paiseh, cos the chef said tt they dun have enough red bean paste to make the buns and he apologised to us..haa. at nite there was a game 'party', and for all games there was always at least one rep from each place..haa. me n bro played 2 of the games also. one was we had to place a balloon between our backs and den turn ard to make the balloon between our stomachs n den burst it. the other was solo where we had to throw rings ard a bottle.

21/6 - last day on cruise! disembark to view valley again in the morn, den slack in the aftnn. they always arrange programs, but some of the programs are quite bored la..so i rather go up to the deck..hahah. if not stay inside rm n slack n watch movies..they have movies marathons on board..haa. den at nite was free karaoke time. we juz sit and chat la.

22/6 - last day at china! haa. spent the day at chong qing..but the tour guide was not gd at all la. we had few hrs to shop in the aftnn, den dinner was their famous chong qing ma la huo guo. erm..i dun really like it la..haa. too numb for my liking..haa. the spicy part was still ok, but i dun like it when my tongue was numb..haa. at nite went to see their nite scenery which wasnt as great as wad the guide said. n we din even view it on a higher level or sth..it was juz by a road side, which we can see the yangtze river and buildings w nice lightings. reached the airport at 11pm to fly home!

lalala, back from china~!! before i start to write long stories on the trip, shall first blog abt today! now the 4 of us are free, so can take turns to go down n tend the stall..work only 4 days a wk..yay! hahah. so i off todae n tml and sat cos sat will be celebrating ah ma birthday.

today went tam hse to slack..her hse lots of entertainment la. got pool table (9 feet some more!!), PS 2, mahjong, n ETC..LOL. gd place to slack..hahaha. den kok joined us for dinner after her interview. ate zhu chao, den talk talk talk..lol. reached home at abt 9+. dennnnnnnnn at 10+ almost 11, jackson asked me n kok out for supper. ahhh, shdnt have bathed so early la! lol. so had supper at the 24hr coffee shop at cck interchange. during the whole meal, kok was super high. she kept talking and laughing la! LOL. duno wad caused it..2 hrs ago, she was still quite normal..but somehow i tink playing audition makes her high..hahahha. ohh, den goonz me, i put my whole wallet w keys inside kok's bag n 4gt to take back..reach my lift le den realise..HAHAH. have to call her to come down again..HAHA. not like we stay v far from each other..lalala~. supper was jackson's treat though..hahaha. thks! really broke now..no time to teach tuition so no income..haaa

tml gg k box ladies nite!! woohoo!! lol

congrats to kok for finding a job too!! but really not prepared to start work so soon eh. y do i have to be prepared when its u starting work?! cos i still thot we all can go play more often when i work fewer days..now cannotttttttt! n to my horror.........ONLY 5 WKS OF HOLS LEFT!!!! AHHHHHhhhhhhh

china trip:

15/6 - flight to shen zhen was at 7 or 7+ am..reached the airport quite early. n was quite hungry, so bought BK breakfast..lol. quite pig, but i was really quite hungry, usually too early in the morn i wun have much appetite, but for tt day i was quite abnormal. reached shen zhen airport at abt 11am, den we had to wait for the 'tour guide'!! faints lo..where got tour guide late de..den we had to call the singapore tour agency, the china one oso..cmi. bad impression of her already..heng her job was only to take us to lunch and send us to take the domestic flight in the aftnn to chang sha (长沙) at hu nan (湖南). reach chang sha n saw the tour guide. first impression was: she seems v young..looks like shes not even 20. she was actually 21 la..still v young. went for dinner at some restaurant and den to hotel to rest for the nite le. all the lunch and dinner at china were 10 dishes and one soup..v kong bu..lol. n i rem for the 1st 2 days, we ate stir-fried cucumber w meat and brinjal for the lunches and dinners !! n beer were served for all lunch and dinners there too. but the alcohol content was not v high la..ard 2-4%. taste abit sweet oso.

16/6 - wake up call at 6am!! so early manz!! had breakfast at the hotel..n gosh, it was quite terrible. apart from the quality and quantity of the food which i shall not comment first..there werent even enough plates, cups, cutlery!! n most of the food were gone and not replenished. the tour guide later explained tt it was cause they had duno wad 14 korean tour grps or sth..but still..

left the place at 745am n travel on coach for abt 4 hrs to reach zhang jia jie (张家界). so now, zhang jia jie is still not v accessible as compared to most other places..but the scenery there is beautiful. well, when it becomes more accessible, the place will also be more commercialised..hah. the ppl there mainly depends on tourism to make a living and red light district. reached there and had lunch and den went to bao feng lake (宝峰湖). its a lake on a mountain..quite amazing. lots of hills and other mountains oso. had to walk up the mountain which was quite tiring..too long nv exercise..lol. the scene on the top was definitely worth the walk. there was also a half natural waterfall..it was a natural waterfall, but they man-made part was that they increased the volume of the water falling down..haha.

next stop went to a shop for foot massage and to 泡脚 in some herbal water. the water was so hot la..more den 40 deg! siaoz. waited quite long until the water cooled abit den put feet inside..lol. i din do the massage too, cos they said have to be 22 and above if not there will be side effects..i m not yet 22!! but the foot massage like nth one..see them do and hear my parents comments..lol. they seem to anyhow massage only. went back hotel to take a rest and den had dinner at the hotel's restaurant. this hotel is v good man..the rm is spacious and bed and pillows and shower were good..lol. after dinner, we went to watch a show performance which was about the different cultural customs of the 3 different grps of ppl at zhang jiajie as well as those impressive performance like walking on fire blah.

to be continued.....

its the 4th day since my stall has opened! so tiring!! working 12 hrs a day, slping abt 5-6 hrs a day and spending 3-4 hrs on transport~! but i tink i have sort of gotten used to it le..one night rest is enough to relieve my legs from aches the next day, though by the late aftnn, my legs ll be tired again. but i ll be hot n sticky from 10+ am to until i reach home at abt 12+ mn. my poor sensitive skin cant take it as usual, and ll itch and have some rashes at nite..zzz

everyday has been quite routine..doing mostly the same stuffs. reached the place at abt 10am n start preparing (cleaning the place and stuffs cos its quite dusty there, cutting fruits, preparing other ingredients..), den 11+, 12 noon do the lunch crowd business. until abt 2pm, we start to rest abit, have lunch and den we start preparing ingredients again like freezing our 'special' ice..hahah, and cut fruits (mainly only mangoes..take such a long time to cut them!!! ZZzz) i muz master the art of cutting mangoes and be 神刀手!!! HAHA. at nite usually we pack up at abt 10 or 10+, if we have to take public transport, if we have car to take home, den ll do unitl slightly later..hahaa

the 5 star chicken rice staffs are all v nice ppl man..have been helping us quite alot, especially the captain, and sometimes we also feel bad abt asking them for help..hahaha. n they eat our ice quite often oso~~ cos its niceeeeeee..LOL! ok la, partly cos the weather is damn hot..hahah. business seems ok..but since our stall is new, hopefully we can expect more customers and regular customers to come..which all depends on word of mouth..hahahaha. we are still in the midst of doing up the place to make it more attractive cos the wall inside the stall doesnt really look v nice, n its bare and plain..so have to make it looks better. but given our limited time at home, its hard to be efficient..hahaa

i tink i m burning alot of calories daily..anyone interested in burning calories can volunteer to help at the stall..HAHAHA..i dun charge $$ !!

finally got half a day for me to slack~! not much of a time for me to take a breather after exams man, and i tink i seriously need one v long break to get rid of the 'drained' feeling.

anyway, there are currently 3 major things which is keeping me v busy..FYP, prepare for the opening of the stall and cousin's wedding!! hahah. will be opening a stall 20th+ may to sell the ice desserts..n theres really quite alot of preparatory work though its juz a small stall.

Mon (7th) and thurs (10th) were spent at fren hse to discuss abt the stall stuffs. Mon was still quite ok and i met mag for dinner..hoho. fortunately due to my not-so-good throat, we din end up having LJS AGAIN. thurs was madness. spent 12 hrs at their hse, sooner or later it gonna be my 2nd home le, or rahter, maybe the future stall ll be my 2nd home..lolz. was so tired when i got home. oh den winnie asked me to help her edit her chinese essay..OMG!! now i truely understand how badly has my chinese deteriorated~~ HAHAHA.

Tue went back sch to meet with fyp supervisor..ahhhh..ok la, i tink i din get shot alot but becos i wasnt present during the 1st draft meeting, i wasnt really able to argue with some of the things she ask us to change. Wed stayed home and edited the project. well, ok..i admit i did slack some time on Wed oso..hahaha.

Fri was oso hectic..morn went to sch to pass my supervisor the draft 1 n 2 hardcopies (go to sch to juz slide the papers under her door..zzZz). den met winnie (cousin) to shop for dress. need to buy one cos we will be under my cousin's jie mei tuan during the BIG DAY! hahaha. went far east, heerens and bugis but couldnt find any suitable one..though we only spent like ard 4hrs shopping ba. den went down to pasir ris for the jie mei meeting cum bbq~ ok, wasnt tt shou with her frens, but liddat lor..hahaha. reached home at abt 2am (another cousin drove us cousins home).

sat morn arranged to meet with the boss of the shop that we were gg to rent a stall from, and me n my fren waited for him for like 2 hrs!! ahhhh..den we only talk for like ard half an hr cos he was busy..zzzzz. after tt rushed down to orchard to meet winnie again to continue our hunt for dress..lol. later meet another cousin, cindy jie to shop at marina square and finally manage to buy one at MNA..hee..niceeeeee..hahahha.

today woke up at 730 to teach tuitions...so slpy man. but was pissed off cos when i boarded the train, my student den tell me that she need to study other subject todae and cant have tuition..ZZzzz. but luckily, my 2nd student was able to start tuition earlier, so juz went straight to her hse, if not i ll be vv pissed. always cancel tuition last min and worse still, i had to wake up soooooo early laaaa..i need my beauty slp lo! aftnn went out to lunch with ah ma at crystal jade. n den its home sweet home~ took a NAP, not juz my normal bi mu yang shen..ahhaa..but the nap was quite short only la, auto woke up after 1 hr i tink.

i need MORE shopping.

end of exams 2 days ago! at least i ll be freed from burying myself under the notes and books for 3 mths..haha. Still got fyp to settle, but soon it ll be over and done with (or i definitely hope so!) next wk gonna meet my supervisor ALONE..GOSH!! she better not be in a bad mood cos i cant take her attacks single-handedly.

ohhh..and the slping monster had come to bug me..zzz..hahah. i tink it ll be ard for at least a few more days..LOL. but the eating monster inside me is gone gone gone! as proven by dinner this 2 days..hahah. get full easily and ate lesser den before, but i cant rem when it started. no more buffets..sobz..lollllll

HOORAYYYY~! well done for my 2 papers these 2 days man.

could only do half of the MB paper and nearly could not finish it. 7 qns in 2 hrs is near impossible. theres no time to think thru clearly and structure the ans properly..i juz wrote wadeva came to my mind. n theres so many application qns where we had to tink of examples on the spot. gosh. stupidity: i did extra research on one of the technical terms which they mention in the notes but din explain. it came out, but i din noe it was about tt. yay!!

nevertheless, made a even stupid mistake todae for the forecasting paper. had to choose 3 out of 4 qns for 2nd section. n i had to give up on the easiest qns because i din see the formula in the formula sheet. right. how smart. 30 marks gone juz like that, and ended up having no choice but to do the 2 difficult qns. was so angry and disappointed with myself that i had to escape to the toilet after the paper to calm myself down abit. Ahhhhh. freak.

wads next?

夜的宁静 适合静静思考
关于生活的选择题 答案在哪里 我怎么定义
努力的想挣脱 但一次又一次的失败 才发现早已麻痹
失去了方向 迷失了自己 迷茫像刺青 烙印在我心里
累得蹲在角落 吾住耳朵 不想不听能否自由
为何依然陷在黑色漩涡里 拯救不了自己
逃不开 让脑袋留在凌乱的思绪里 我学不会忍耐

当黑夜清晰过白昼 孤独胜过拥有 逆着光也无法感觉希望存在
我怀念的是无忧无虑的日子 飞不回原来 冰冷的躯壳 就这样漂浮着
想让思考放空 假洒脱 是怕无法逃脱
答案在雨里 我只看见 淡灰色的风景
错在明知是错 该如何得到解脱 不再堕落
每个路口 怎么转都错 我进退不得 谁救我

adapted from 燕姿's songs : 安宁 关于 漩涡 需要你 飘着 逆光 我怀念的

ahhhhh...nth much to be updated..cos its mainly juz sch n sch n sch. n soon it ll be the start of the 'long-awaited' battle..wooohoooo~~ how exciting!! yay!!!

© shi

逃亡

突然好想，把自己封闭
坚固的墙，不允许陌生人入侵
唯有在自己的堡垒里
没有烦人的喧哗吵闹
没有令人窒息的束缚
不必面对现实的世界
不必面对尔虞我诈
只有孤单陪伴
习惯寂寞伴随
抛下所有包袱
卸下所有伪装
只想。。。逃

本篇纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合。

© shi

迷茫，不解

仿佛像站在大海中被巨大浪潮袭击，不知所措
仿佛像走进了黑暗可怕的森林，不知如何逃脱
仿佛像被困在废墟中，不知如何挣脱
仿佛像自暴自弃似，堕落
仿佛像和妈妈走失了的孩子，惊慌失措
仿佛像做错事的孩子，不敢抬头面对
仿佛像站在十字路口，犹豫彷徨
只能无谓挣扎，独自面对，越陷越深，直到无法自拔
不想被束缚着，但又被现实捆绑着
面临即将到来的崩溃，又有谁能给我答案，寻找出口，让我有双翅膀，
仿佛像找到了属于自己辽阔的天空，无忧无虑的飞翔


“望” 想三部曲

希望

像被释放似，在悠悠翠绿的草原奔跑
暖暖的阳光照耀在身上，犹如一个温暖的怀抱
此时此刻，暂忘了伤痛
安心，舒服，自在，自由
希望很美好

失望

夕阳无限好，可惜近黄昏
听着小鸟回巢的声音
看着充满希望的太阳渐渐消失
感觉着力量被黑暗掠夺
恐惧排山倒海般攻击着
无助的任由眼泪滑落
只能等待着第一曙光的来临。

绝望

你说过做一辈子的好朋友
你说过一辈子一起分享喜与优
你说过一辈子陪我走
还没一辈子一切却已化为乌有
卷了，伤透了，哭累了，思念了
一切也没了。

时间能让伤口愈合，但疤痕却无法抹掉。


ok, 1st attempt at writing such stuffs. both kind of depressing hor..hmm..lol. but its easier to write sad stuffs. well, at least i attempted to write abt happy stuffs for the "希望".

m i so free to write?! no..lotsa work to do!!!!!!

gosh, the one wk hol is overrrrrrrrrr!!! n nope, i din do much studying..more of slacking and playing only..hahaha. well, 休息是为了走更长的路rite..HAHA!

sat went for Impresario at suntec. Angela live singing was so niceeeeeeee..omg..lol. but she only sang meng li hua and C da diao. dun have bu tong~!! shd have sang more!! it was the highlight of the whole program!!! hahahah. oh, n there was a SMU pair (chinese girl and malay guy) sang ni zui zhen gui. they were quite good but only get 1st runner-up. n the difference between the prizes are vv huge man. while some walked away with cash like $600, some only got party world vouchers..lollllll.

fri went kbox~~ muahahaha. thurs was quite boring..went back sch early in the morn to discuss project!! but thks to ys, i got the long awaited twins jing xuan ji, and the free webcam given out by creative..hahahaa. wed evening went jackson hse for mahjong with michael and karen. won some money but jackson was the big winner..lol. playing mahjong can help me build up my thinking and analytical skills..hahaha. so crappish! but really need to think and be decisive when playing mahjong kkkkkkk. its fun with or without money. it only increase the excitement when theres money involved..haha.

cant rem wad i did on tue..so i guessed i slacked the whole day at home..hhaha. mon went back sch to discuss FYP. i wonder when can we finish our fyp. .zzzzzz.

n now..... i m vvvv hungry!! time for lunch!~! its a battle between maggie mee or gg out to buy again. but i m so lazy to go buy lunch when the weather is so hot..hahah.

既然你问起 - 黄义达

既然你問我 重點已不在我快不快樂 後來的事其實不必多說
心疼的是他對 你好冷漠
＊時間粉落 如雪落 心裡的火還為你執著 叫我如何 不再難過
當初我 不就是現在的你在聽候發落
**愛並沒有對錯 我痛過 總算一點一點的懂得 你是自由的 不必只屬於我
我怎能不難過 你哭了 但妳要的安慰不是我 愛不自由的 當愛得比較多
愛並沒有對或錯 我明白遲來先到的沒有因果 你是自由的 不必只屬於我
我怎能不難過 你哭了 但你要安慰的不是我
只要他一個 勝過一百個我 既然你問我 你問起我

部落格 - 黄义达

美 只剩过眼云烟 时间倒转那夜 我才了解爱的美丽诗篇
#说爱走到了极限 我想GOOGLE爱情 有没有答案在网络里面
在我的指尖敲打着键盘 无声的 却爱得深刻 或许在爱得部落格 储存着思念
**就这样 我颓废 夜无法入睡 用沉默 把自己灌醉 街灯它撒白了房间 夜色弥漫孤单气味
爱无畏 只是给不给 你了解 装作无所谓 时空隔开爱得真伪 相拥的棉被 只剩下爱情的余味

到底多久 - 黄义达

幸福可以很残忍 带着脆弱的眼神 舍不得 短短的一句 就此忘了吗 亲手把你送给他
接受了爱的惩罚 孤单是我的终点 算了吧 短短的一句 只有伤痛吧 让沉默把这个笑容锁在心里头
**天长地久有多久 再见还说不出口 所有记忆被洗去后 什么没带走
天长地久有多久 我把快乐放在你的手中 记得你要好好的过
幸福可以很残忍 带着脆弱的眼神 舍不得 短短的一句 就此忘了吧 让沉默把这个笑容锁在心里头
**天长地久有多久 再见还说不出口 所有记忆被洗去后 什么没带走
天长地久有多久 我把快乐放在你的手中 记得你要好好的过
天长地久有多久 或许一生都不够 所有记忆被洗去后　剩什么没带走
天长地久有多久 我把快乐放在你的手中 记得你要好好的过　记得你要好好的过

那女孩 - 黄义达

我盯著天空 像傻瓜聽風吼 雲一樣滾動 過了幾年了
從那個雨天 到藍色天空 從寂寞 到自由 原來世界早已不同
**I believe I believe 那女孩是真的愛我
I believe I believe 眼淚不再凝固的左手
I believe I believe 有某一些痛 我們都懂
雖然在雨天的時候 記憶它老是狠狠咬著我耳朵
我看到未來的結果 那女孩他的溫柔 是我的感動

current top 4 favorite songs from 黄义达's 《完整演出》..v nice!!!

逆光 - 孙燕姿

也许我一直害怕有答案 也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀 很短暂又重来 有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散 我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达 拥抱过还是害怕 用力推开你我一人留下
**有一束光那瞬间 是什么痛得刺眼 你的视线是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见 那是泪光那力量 我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光感觉爱存在的地方 一直就在我身旁
我不要困难把我们击散 我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达 拥抱过还是害怕 用力推开你我一人留下
**有一束光那瞬间 是什么痛得刺眼 你的视线是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见那是泪光那力量 我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光感觉爱存在的地方 一直就在我身旁
*我以为无路后退 反复证明 这份爱有多不对 背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫 睁开眼 打开窗才发现你就是光芒
**有一束光 那瞬间是什么痛得刺眼 你的视线是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见 那是泪光那力量 我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光感觉爱存在的地方 一直就在我身旁 光芒你是光芒

yanzi's new song..muahhaha. well written lyrics + yanzi voice = superb song. hahahah

lala~ feeling sleepy now although i woke up at 10+ this morn..hahaha. i m NOT pig..heee. anyway, ytd went for the first management tutorial. n goonz us, christina n me went for the wrong class. We just follow fiona blindly to her class, n after 15 mins or so, i checked my timetable n saw that our class is at S3 seminar rm 3, not SR1..hahhaha. first time went for the wrong class. N no wonder fiona told us they were already at tut 2, n she din receive any email regarding the cancelling of lessons 2 wks ago. I was still tinking cant possibly be so weird that only me n christina received the email n missed the lessons mah..lol. but the tutor is quite interesting la. he was the one who conducted the workshop on job hunting/interv skills/resume writting. but u have to be quite active for this tutorial class..have to speak out, n at the end of the class, u have to write down wad u have contributed on the piece of card he give. so as a result, there were many ppl voicing out their opinions during the lesson.

this aftnn had tuition as usual. n my student seems quite discouraged over her econs essay marks. but i told her i always fail my econs essays during JC oso..as well as other tests..hahahaha. wrong encouragement?! lol. ohhhh.. n she told me CHOY KEEN MENG (my forecasting lecturer) actually went to PJ last wed to "advertise" HSS econs..hahahah. n she said that he was v lame. no one luffed when he cracked a joke, n he had to say: "its a joke." before they "attempted" to luff..lollll. but some of the jokes he cracked in class were quite funny oso leh..hahahha. but its kind of weird to have him gg to "advertise" for the sch isint it? seems no link..hahha. well, at least he was more helpful than Randolph (econometrics lecturer last sem), who din replied our email we sent him to ask for consultation. gave CKM a last min call on fri aftnn n we could meet him in that same aftnn. Maybe its becos hes more slack..hahhaha.

next next wk is the CNY wk liao! n after tt ll be the 1 wk break..which means half a sem is over. time really flies man..it seems as though sch has juz started n half the sem is already gone. soon ll need to mug for exams again..zzzzzzzzzzzz.